Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Yesterday was very "bluey".. Sleep at 5am on E previous day and had to get to NP by 11am to do ERP pract5... Got there actualli very early at abt 9am plus, cos i still cant get to sleep realli.. so i stone there looking at every living person that walk past the bustop... even being lame to count the number of cars that passed by. By the time WQ came, I almost finished my Marboro hardpack! (juz bought in e morning). We saw my Val n Drew their group in e pract room, n i had to say, dun get e wrong meaning ah. Andrew~ Den we started the damm pract, when XF came to join us. damm, after finishin up the pract, i had to go for bball again~ freakin tireD! frm 3pm til 10pm! wat kinda shit is this!!! During the bball , i'm achieved 1 stunt manz! as I had to get my "stuff" frm Brother Eugene at lot1 by 6:15pm, i ran there at 6:11pm! i tink the whole distance was almost 1km! dun knw how i did it, but lost form is that at Lot1-coffeebean, i meet my old classmates, den Kangwei too. while i awaiting for Eugene, dripping in sweat, hair all messed up, i had to see my Ex coming out frm E control station... fuck~ juz another day of mine...

tried to be a somebody at Wednesday, February 25, 2004

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Insignificant

I'm nobody really.Serious. Just an unknown guy, Living the infamous lowlife of human society. Unknown, Unseemed, Unheard of. I'm the good old rational goof. Running my own little life. I'll never do anything out of line, Never disturb the rest, Never offend my own kind. Perhaps you're wondering, I'm stupid I'm insignificant, I smoke my life away and keeps people away, How could I be, a good old goofy? Well a girl told me once, That I'm called Jason and I'm just another chap. But if I be a goody goody one, Live my little life, Never to step out of my own lane, Be good work hard, I would get to my final destination. Find a life, And become a somebody. Somebody. Someday. Somehow. Well it's been ages since I've seen her again. But her words still rung in my head. Ever since I've lost her in Tekong, I've come to this weirdo place in Kranji. When everyday I just run and run and run. Never gettin to where I wan to be, But never mind, I'll keep running, Be good work hard, I'll get there someday. Someday. Somehow. Sometime. When I get there I bet all my fellow mates will go mad. Maybe that would be the day they'll let me go back! Go back to you, girl. Then I could hold you again. Like we never separated before. Do you know how much this unknown chap. Your little boy, misses you? But it's okay it's all right, I'll run my little life well. Be good work hard, I'll keep to my own lane. Never step out of line. And soon enough I'll get there. Get a fuckin new life, I hear it's fanatastic, they say. And then I'll return to you. Back to the fields of the old days. Marry the sweet little you, And have lots of little 'uns. Just like the average man. Just like the average society. But first I need to keep running. Run and run and run. Until I get to there, Become the winner, Become that somebody you wanted me to become, That somebody man. But well, Until then, I'm a nobody really. Just a unknown chap called Jayson. Running my little lowlife. Wait for me.

I have friends?
My Dearest. Elaine