Sunday, May 23, 2004

Jianquan's 21st Birthday, Mixed feelins..
Went for Jianquan's birthday pre-celebrations yesterday(Sat). Well, woke up late N rushed down to Yishun to meet Rene.. Well, kena scolded upside down by her for being late. Den went joggin wif her' Wow, she can run fast man. almost lost to a gal! Den do gym wif her brother, while she spends her time wandering around oogling at hunks! :P later, I dun-know-for-wat-fuck reason, she PMS me... dun know its my being late, or it's my tellin her I going to meet up wif my Brothers for Pierre's birthday outin last mintue. So dinner was very weird wif her brother tryin to crack stupid jokes to relieve the atmonsphere.. Anyway, I heck care this shit' she can blow her "da xiao jie Pi Qi" for all she wants. Stupid Pierre called me during dinner to hurry me to make matters worse! Anyway, enuff abt this. So her brother drove me to town' He tok to me abt Rene la, tryin to act brotherly luV all over, makes me sianz half. Den he drove me to cuppage, which I alighted. Den stupid Pierre they all not at Sunlight!! Instead, he was at PartyWorld, BISH...
Alreadi "hot" from my tiff wif Rene, he makes me "hotter"! Worse til, Mr.Brotherly Luv insisted on sendin me over to PartyWorld, make him U-turn here N there.. So I reached there wif a very sianz face.. Anyway, only Pierre, his gf, Eush were there.. Lucky tt Pierre got apologised, else I will KILL U, Pierre! His gf kept requestin me to sing songs, haha. When I feel listenin to her sing is way better den listenin to me lo. Summore, I coughin all the way. Later, Denise came N impressed me all over again, wif new songs. Later, Miss.Genie.in.a.bottle also reached to complete her lovesongs duo wif Denise. Den, Vivian, another Diva-queen came along, all sang very well~ except me N jianquan, so we 2 became "judge" for "Singapore Idol" suan le. Halfway throu, when every1 is here, the cake came~ Much to Pierre's surprise, (throu I more surprised den him tt he didn't expect his gf will buy cake for him!?!?") Nearing the end of the KtV session, I had a bet of "Manhood" wif Pierre to "chiong" finished the untouch bowl of tibbits, N when I was about to win, he Humji den start food fight!! He threw Eush, Eush threw back N I was sittin rite btwn them!! So I siam to Linda there. But she also start food fight!! So in the end, it became a Royal Rumble!!! I splashed 1 untouched bowl of tibbits rite onto Pierre! Wohoo~ Den we all siam. Den we all siam quite fast outside, when we looked back, we saw Eush N Vivan, but we didn't see Pierre N his gf!! So for a while, we tot they kena called back to clear the room, hahaha! Den Linda go meet her guy, den we all go to play pool. We paired into Pierre N his gf (couple grp), Eush N Vivian (soon.to.be.Couple. grp?) N me + Denise (both = 1yr neva play pool grp). lolz. The pool match very funny, I didn't try to "let water" a lot lo, I juz didn't score tts all~ Den Pierre insisted I "let water maximum" so he gave back ultimate easy shot for Denise to wrap it up~ Second rd, Vivian geh geh dun know how to play, but top scorer leh~ N we lost, thanks to Denise's last ditch foul(:P), N my impotency~ Den we all char bor home. Poor Denise, go home alone~ Den the rest of us have a fun time dishing the guy surrounded by us on the train, lolz. Den Joyce started the crap abt Vivian N Eush again~ so i joined in a bit. Den she 2-headed snake, shoot me also. Worse of all, Vivian go N play along~ wtf? End of story? Nopez, me N Eush, went to met Rashid at woodlands N we made sure Rashid feels GUILTY abt nt coming today (Bopian he book out at 10pm).. Den we play video games, crap shit N slept. Eush den went to work, Rash go take his bike.pract, I go back home.. As of now, I haven bathe, haven shit, haven receive reply from dear. Got a dumb call frm Shisi askin me to eat S.sushi wif her? I suspected she either juz got Rejected or watsoever, else she wont msg me yesterday abt I also dun know wat stuff liao.. but den again, I cant even solve my own shit, how am I going to take care of others? haiz, my mind wanders again.. N worse of all, Rene still dun msg me, sianz sianz sianz'

tried to be a somebody at Sunday, May 23, 2004

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Insignificant

I'm nobody really.Serious. Just an unknown guy, Living the infamous lowlife of human society. Unknown, Unseemed, Unheard of. I'm the good old rational goof. Running my own little life. I'll never do anything out of line, Never disturb the rest, Never offend my own kind. Perhaps you're wondering, I'm stupid I'm insignificant, I smoke my life away and keeps people away, How could I be, a good old goofy? Well a girl told me once, That I'm called Jason and I'm just another chap. But if I be a goody goody one, Live my little life, Never to step out of my own lane, Be good work hard, I would get to my final destination. Find a life, And become a somebody. Somebody. Someday. Somehow. Well it's been ages since I've seen her again. But her words still rung in my head. Ever since I've lost her in Tekong, I've come to this weirdo place in Kranji. When everyday I just run and run and run. Never gettin to where I wan to be, But never mind, I'll keep running, Be good work hard, I'll get there someday. Someday. Somehow. Sometime. When I get there I bet all my fellow mates will go mad. Maybe that would be the day they'll let me go back! Go back to you, girl. Then I could hold you again. Like we never separated before. Do you know how much this unknown chap. Your little boy, misses you? But it's okay it's all right, I'll run my little life well. Be good work hard, I'll keep to my own lane. Never step out of line. And soon enough I'll get there. Get a fuckin new life, I hear it's fanatastic, they say. And then I'll return to you. Back to the fields of the old days. Marry the sweet little you, And have lots of little 'uns. Just like the average man. Just like the average society. But first I need to keep running. Run and run and run. Until I get to there, Become the winner, Become that somebody you wanted me to become, That somebody man. But well, Until then, I'm a nobody really. Just a unknown chap called Jayson. Running my little lowlife. Wait for me.

I have friends?
My Dearest. Elaine