Saturday, October 16, 2004

Somewhere over E Rainbow~ I'm Fucked UP

Finally! I got a taste of e true meaning of SISPEC, "Suffer in slience, Please Endure Carry on".

At first, I tot "tis week onli 2nd wk wat~ scare meh?" nxt thing i know, I'm in e jungle listening to lectures N demonstrations by my sergs N Sirs on BN (basic navigation) , pui! wan to give lecture cannot give in lec.rooms meh?So garang for wat? Die die also muz give in e jungle~

Anyway, got tis compass course which is supposed to find our drifting tendency when a person walks in 1 direction.. so I'm thrown into a jungle wif a compass to find different chk.pts using the instructions they give to us.. summore still got day N night excerise, wtf!? lucky e chk.pts I found in e nite was correct, else I'll be sent back into e jungle where I cant even see my own hands in front of me! (okay, I cheated, I used e Torchlight sumtimes~)

Ya, I know I shldn't go into so much detail, cos E more I go into it, e more I feel "Fucked Up"

So to sum it up, SISPEC, is realli "packed" (puns intended).. got a IPPT cat.test (tuesday) , IPPT trial test on friday, LAW tech.handling test, BN theory test, BN practical test, morning 4-5km runs as usual N lectures lectures lectures~ oh! I forgot, there's Delta company's favourite training programme, Canteen Breaks~

Anyway, pls vote for my old fren, Leslie's in FHM's 100 girl nxt door! She's no.76, pls vote for her peeps' Ya, come to tink of it, how times flies.. almost forgotton e fun times e both of us had together den.. Pity, I lost her contact since tt fateful night liao le.. haiz.. Maybe Fate shall decree tt our paths will cross once again n we could get back to old times once again~

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tried to be a somebody at Saturday, October 16, 2004

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Insignificant

I'm nobody really.Serious. Just an unknown guy, Living the infamous lowlife of human society. Unknown, Unseemed, Unheard of. I'm the good old rational goof. Running my own little life. I'll never do anything out of line, Never disturb the rest, Never offend my own kind. Perhaps you're wondering, I'm stupid I'm insignificant, I smoke my life away and keeps people away, How could I be, a good old goofy? Well a girl told me once, That I'm called Jason and I'm just another chap. But if I be a goody goody one, Live my little life, Never to step out of my own lane, Be good work hard, I would get to my final destination. Find a life, And become a somebody. Somebody. Someday. Somehow. Well it's been ages since I've seen her again. But her words still rung in my head. Ever since I've lost her in Tekong, I've come to this weirdo place in Kranji. When everyday I just run and run and run. Never gettin to where I wan to be, But never mind, I'll keep running, Be good work hard, I'll get there someday. Someday. Somehow. Sometime. When I get there I bet all my fellow mates will go mad. Maybe that would be the day they'll let me go back! Go back to you, girl. Then I could hold you again. Like we never separated before. Do you know how much this unknown chap. Your little boy, misses you? But it's okay it's all right, I'll run my little life well. Be good work hard, I'll keep to my own lane. Never step out of line. And soon enough I'll get there. Get a fuckin new life, I hear it's fanatastic, they say. And then I'll return to you. Back to the fields of the old days. Marry the sweet little you, And have lots of little 'uns. Just like the average man. Just like the average society. But first I need to keep running. Run and run and run. Until I get to there, Become the winner, Become that somebody you wanted me to become, That somebody man. But well, Until then, I'm a nobody really. Just a unknown chap called Jayson. Running my little lowlife. Wait for me.

I have friends?
My Dearest. Elaine