IT'S A TORTURE
Do I wan You or Do I wan the truth?
There cannot be the best of both worlds..

Watever I heard
Watever I know
I know I still wan You

However you may treat me
However the circumstances
I know I still love You

No matter the present,
No matter the future,
even without the recent events,
I love You

Why cant you see past all these
Cant you see that even without all these events
and realise I'm still the one
who's True to You?

Pls come back to your senses
& follow your heart
I already fallen to the lowest depths
N I hav risen up for you

Its not becos I cant take this
or blind love
tts y I want you back;

Loving you, caring for you,
spendin the rest of my lifetime wif you
is a decision we've made wif each other
since long ago..

I love you & I wan you to be happy
Dun juz give me a chance
Yet not let me fulfill my promise to you

Please believe in us
that we can overcome the present troubles
& any future problems we will encounter in the future
on our way to our true happiness

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To my Girl from your Man

捕梦人

轻轻唱边梦边唱
闭上眼一路摇摇晃晃
没有人知道答案
路很长循着光到前方

勇气的重量
穿过树影落在我手掌
紧紧握着不能放

半边月亮挂着重重的梦想
捕梦的人指着天空想越爬越高
累了躺在堆满星星的城堡
过了就好

逆着风跌跌撞撞
泪和汗痕迹印在肩膀
静静的辨认星光
灰的云却挡住了光亮

勇气的重量
穿过树影落在我手掌
紧紧握着不能放

半边月亮挂着重重的梦想
捕梦的人指着天空想越爬越高
累了躺在堆满星星的城堡
过了就好
啦啦啦啦啦啦
捕梦人织的网悬在蓝天上
啦啦啦啦啦啦
捕梦人的愿望好远却又好灿烂

半边月亮挂着重重的梦想
捕梦的人指着天空想越爬越高
累了躺在堆满星星的城堡
过了就好醒来继续微笑
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The Day e Girl I wanted to Marry left me

Things has come to pass
& the air has been cleared

E painful decison is made
& our future is dashed

I realised i'm in e wrong
but its too late

As my world crumbles in on me,
I tink abt events tt happen since march til now.

I quarreled wif a "Brother",
over a simple matter

My Parents almost wanted a divorce,
consider them separated

I guess its only logical tt
comes May, I would lose e Love of my life
The one who I'll be marryin

I had hopes for e future,
for our future together.
But guess wat?
I screwed it up
all becos I was too harsh
I was too stubborn

I realised my mistakes
& I realised my faults

To tink tt I had to be so rash
so rash to squabble wif her
to completely ignore her
at her most helpless moment

Which lead to her decision
for e both of us

She is the first woman tt actually touch my heart
& I believe she will be e last woman to do so

I really wanted to turn back the clock
& turn back the time
But I know I cant.

I cant ever make it up to her;
I believed
for it was I who was so wrong

But I will always be by her side
& keep on caring for her
& luving her

Til e day, time really turn back..

Pls forgive me, my Luv,
even thou u will never even
see this Tots of mine..



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When u found out u dun matter anymore..

"All along, I am 2nd priority, be it matters, be it people;
& nw, even breakin up wif me
is still 2nd priority compared to others.."

Wat do u do when u found out e one u luv
doesn't luv u anymore?
Wat do u do when she dun
even care to speak to u abt it?

Lost for words..

-
-- 那男子还不懂怀疑---
到底自己是否没出息

The day you moved on

- Why you leaving, i all along knew nothing until the day before?

- Wat is e true reasons for ur leaving?
Til nw n I still do not know

- You asked for the rental, i went out & take;
saw you at the lift, i passed you the $$
n you juz went off.

- All e way, from 12pm , u came back at 2.
Directly wif amy , and wif steve already dwnstairs waiting;
Amy looked at me wif tt face;
n I was uncertain wat went on from 12 to 2..

- We brought your stuff dwnstairs and guess wat,
u carry on talkin wif her?
Felt like an outsider even thou I'm supposed to be ur boyfriend.

- And so off you go, waving me off wif a simple "byebye"

- As I watch frm my corridor, i saw u merrily chattin wif amy
b4 gettin into the car n move off.

Hav I realli made ur stay so bad tts
its seems like a total relief to move out?
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So we started a cold war, it dragged on n on, until our exams over.

- wat live for urself
- wat who right who wrong n it suits u fine
- thks to all who supported you.
- to the one & only

All meaningless hurtful words

all the posts n all e blogs, n the msn convo tt hurts the most.
- you sound so alien
- you sound like we're strangers
Capping it off wif "Dun worry, we will talk"


The war continues til Mother's day,
when i tot you might be feelin low.
Unable to leave u alone,
I relented..

I tried to msg, I tried to call
All for naught & all to no avail..

So after my dinner wif my family,
i went straight dwn

Not knowing where to look,
not knowing how to get to you.

I drank alone, I drank wif frens,
I drank some more, n i dun know wat to do.

Totally unreachable,
i tot u blocked my calls,
I tot wat has happened to you
I tot wat has happened to us


So, I held on,
on e verge of despair.

Den ur sms came,
n ur juz back fomr an overseas trip.

Yes, I knew ur hav sumthin on for sat.
But I didnt knew you went overseas.

No matter how bad the quarrel is,
aint I supposed to knw all this?
I felt useless, I felt hopeless..

So not knowing who u went wif,
where u went to,
how u got home,

throu half stupor and half consciousness..
I replied to ur sms,
trying to hide e pain in my heart..
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I will try my best to be happy,
Wif you not knowing the grief you caused me,
I will try my very best to make e relationship works,
cos I still believe in you..