Sunday, May 31, 2009

IT'S A TORTURE
Do I wan You or Do I wan the truth?
There cannot be the best of both worlds..

Watever I heard
Watever I know
I know I still wan You

However you may treat me
However the circumstances
I know I still love You

No matter the present,
No matter the future,
even without the recent events,
I love You

Why cant you see past all these
Cant you see that even without all these events
and realise I'm still the one
who's True to You?

Pls come back to your senses
& follow your heart
I already fallen to the lowest depths
N I hav risen up for you

Its not becos I cant take this
or blind love
tts y I want you back;

Loving you, caring for you,
spendin the rest of my lifetime wif you
is a decision we've made wif each other
since long ago..

I love you & I wan you to be happy
Dun juz give me a chance
Yet not let me fulfill my promise to you

Please believe in us
that we can overcome the present troubles
& any future problems we will encounter in the future
on our way to our true happiness

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To my Girl from your Man

tried to be a somebody at Sunday, May 31, 2009

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Insignificant

I'm nobody really.Serious. Just an unknown guy, Living the infamous lowlife of human society. Unknown, Unseemed, Unheard of. I'm the good old rational goof. Running my own little life. I'll never do anything out of line, Never disturb the rest, Never offend my own kind. Perhaps you're wondering, I'm stupid I'm insignificant, I smoke my life away and keeps people away, How could I be, a good old goofy? Well a girl told me once, That I'm called Jason and I'm just another chap. But if I be a goody goody one, Live my little life, Never to step out of my own lane, Be good work hard, I would get to my final destination. Find a life, And become a somebody. Somebody. Someday. Somehow. Well it's been ages since I've seen her again. But her words still rung in my head. Ever since I've lost her in Tekong, I've come to this weirdo place in Kranji. When everyday I just run and run and run. Never gettin to where I wan to be, But never mind, I'll keep running, Be good work hard, I'll get there someday. Someday. Somehow. Sometime. When I get there I bet all my fellow mates will go mad. Maybe that would be the day they'll let me go back! Go back to you, girl. Then I could hold you again. Like we never separated before. Do you know how much this unknown chap. Your little boy, misses you? But it's okay it's all right, I'll run my little life well. Be good work hard, I'll keep to my own lane. Never step out of line. And soon enough I'll get there. Get a fuckin new life, I hear it's fanatastic, they say. And then I'll return to you. Back to the fields of the old days. Marry the sweet little you, And have lots of little 'uns. Just like the average man. Just like the average society. But first I need to keep running. Run and run and run. Until I get to there, Become the winner, Become that somebody you wanted me to become, That somebody man. But well, Until then, I'm a nobody really. Just a unknown chap called Jayson. Running my little lowlife. Wait for me.

I have friends?
My Dearest. Elaine