Monday, July 13, 2009

Intentions

Why is it
the rational me
can be so weak emotionally?

Why is it tt only
songs can express this feeling
which cannot be put down in words

The truth still hurts; no matter the intentions
good or bad
Still, Im happy for the honesty
At least, the effort's there finally..

from being 2nd to 1st ;
will I ever get there?

Do I hav to carry this strain
forever in my heart
til the day I finally rest
Or
til I finally Crashed & Burn
all together as one..

How much more can I hold
Im holding on
When can I ever have your love totally
your 100% love
that I can only crave for in my dreams

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望着你慢慢离开
宿命像潮水般

淹没我不能呼吸
漂浮在黑色的海

怎么习惯失去你的未来
怎么留住渐渐消失的云彩

骗自己爱还存在
泪水却始终不断

命中注定没有你的未来
莫失莫望渐渐消失的空白

什么都别说
我不想懂
至少我还拥有
美丽的梦

什么都别说
我真的不想懂
终于明白该放手

什么都别说
我不想懂
至少我还拥有
美丽的梦

什么都别说
我真的不想懂
终于明白该放手

终于明白
爱
该放手

望着你,慢慢离开
泪水不断
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tried to be a somebody at Monday, July 13, 2009

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Insignificant

I'm nobody really.Serious. Just an unknown guy, Living the infamous lowlife of human society. Unknown, Unseemed, Unheard of. I'm the good old rational goof. Running my own little life. I'll never do anything out of line, Never disturb the rest, Never offend my own kind. Perhaps you're wondering, I'm stupid I'm insignificant, I smoke my life away and keeps people away, How could I be, a good old goofy? Well a girl told me once, That I'm called Jason and I'm just another chap. But if I be a goody goody one, Live my little life, Never to step out of my own lane, Be good work hard, I would get to my final destination. Find a life, And become a somebody. Somebody. Someday. Somehow. Well it's been ages since I've seen her again. But her words still rung in my head. Ever since I've lost her in Tekong, I've come to this weirdo place in Kranji. When everyday I just run and run and run. Never gettin to where I wan to be, But never mind, I'll keep running, Be good work hard, I'll get there someday. Someday. Somehow. Sometime. When I get there I bet all my fellow mates will go mad. Maybe that would be the day they'll let me go back! Go back to you, girl. Then I could hold you again. Like we never separated before. Do you know how much this unknown chap. Your little boy, misses you? But it's okay it's all right, I'll run my little life well. Be good work hard, I'll keep to my own lane. Never step out of line. And soon enough I'll get there. Get a fuckin new life, I hear it's fanatastic, they say. And then I'll return to you. Back to the fields of the old days. Marry the sweet little you, And have lots of little 'uns. Just like the average man. Just like the average society. But first I need to keep running. Run and run and run. Until I get to there, Become the winner, Become that somebody you wanted me to become, That somebody man. But well, Until then, I'm a nobody really. Just a unknown chap called Jayson. Running my little lowlife. Wait for me.

I have friends?
My Dearest. Elaine