Rei_MaJiMaZ

Will I ever get from 2nd priority to 1st priority

2009-07-13T01:44:00.004+08:00

Intentions

Why is it
the rational me
can be so weak emotionally?

Why is it tt only
songs can express this feeling
which cannot be put down in words

The truth still hurts; no matter the intentions
good or bad
Still, Im happy for the honesty
At least, the effort's there finally..

from being 2nd to 1st ;
will I ever get there?

Do I hav to carry this strain
forever in my heart
til the day I finally rest
Or
til I finally Crashed & Burn
all together as one..

How much more can I hold
Im holding on
When can I ever have your love totally
your 100% love
that I can only crave for in my dreams

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望着你慢慢离开
宿命像潮水般

淹没我不能呼吸
漂浮在黑色的海

怎么习惯失去你的未来
怎么留住渐渐消失的云彩

骗自己爱还存在
泪水却始终不断

命中注定没有你的未来
莫失莫望渐渐消失的空白

什么都别说
我不想懂
至少我还拥有
美丽的梦

什么都别说
我真的不想懂
终于明白该放手

什么都别说
我不想懂
至少我还拥有
美丽的梦

什么都别说
我真的不想懂
终于明白该放手

终于明白
爱
该放手

望着你,慢慢离开
泪水不断
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2009-06-09T02:54:00.002+08:00

彼此的爱

爱是一种信仰
一种承诺
一种永远

更是一种执着
一种美满
一种甘愿

它会证明
我们的爱情
我们的一切
都是正确的
是值得的

一切的风风雨雨
我们都要
手牵着手
一起勇敢的去面对

坚守着这份信仰
让我们的爱更幸福
更美满

一颗心只有一份永久

2009-06-09T01:50:00.003+08:00

信仰

每当我听见忧郁的乐章
勾起回忆的伤
每当我看见白色的月光
想起你的脸庞
明知不该去想
不能去想偏又想到迷惘
是谁让我心酸谁让我牵挂
是你啊

我知道那些不该说的话
让你负气流浪
想知道多年漂浮的时光
是否你也想家

如果当时吻你
当时抱你
也许结局难讲
我那么多遗憾
那么多期盼
你知道吗

我爱你
是多么清楚多么坚固的信仰
我爱你
是多么温暖多么勇敢的力量
我不管心多伤不管爱多慌
不管别人怎么想
爱是一种信仰
把我带到你的身旁

我爱你
是忠于自己忠于爱情的信仰
我爱你
是来自灵魂来自生命的力量
在遥远的地方
你是否一样听见我的呼喊
爱是一种信仰
把你带回我的身旁

Torture..

2009-05-31T13:55:00.006+08:00

IT'S A TORTURE
Do I wan You or Do I wan the truth?
There cannot be the best of both worlds..

Watever I heard
Watever I know
I know I still wan You

However you may treat me
However the circumstances
I know I still love You

No matter the present,
No matter the future,
even without the recent events,
I love You

Why cant you see past all these
Cant you see that even without all these events
and realise I'm still the one
who's True to You?

Pls come back to your senses
& follow your heart
I already fallen to the lowest depths
N I hav risen up for you

Its not becos I cant take this
or blind love
tts y I want you back;

Loving you, caring for you,
spendin the rest of my lifetime wif you
is a decision we've made wif each other
since long ago..

I love you & I wan you to be happy
Dun juz give me a chance
Yet not let me fulfill my promise to you

Please believe in us
that we can overcome the present troubles
& any future problems we will encounter in the future
on our way to our true happiness

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To my Girl from your Man

潘裕文 - 捕梦人

2009-05-18T00:39:00.003+08:00

捕梦人

轻轻唱边梦边唱
闭上眼一路摇摇晃晃
没有人知道答案
路很长循着光到前方

勇气的重量
穿过树影落在我手掌
紧紧握着不能放

半边月亮挂着重重的梦想
捕梦的人指着天空想越爬越高
累了躺在堆满星星的城堡
过了就好

逆着风跌跌撞撞
泪和汗痕迹印在肩膀
静静的辨认星光
灰的云却挡住了光亮

勇气的重量
穿过树影落在我手掌
紧紧握着不能放

半边月亮挂着重重的梦想
捕梦的人指着天空想越爬越高
累了躺在堆满星星的城堡
过了就好
啦啦啦啦啦啦
捕梦人织的网悬在蓝天上
啦啦啦啦啦啦
捕梦人的愿望好远却又好灿烂

半边月亮挂着重重的梦想
捕梦的人指着天空想越爬越高
累了躺在堆满星星的城堡
过了就好醒来继续微笑
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The Day e Girl I wanted to Marry left me

2009-05-14T23:56:00.007+08:00

The Day e Girl I wanted to Marry left me

Things has come to pass
& the air has been cleared

E painful decison is made
& our future is dashed

I realised i'm in e wrong
but its too late

As my world crumbles in on me,
I tink abt events tt happen since march til now.

I quarreled wif a "Brother",
over a simple matter

My Parents almost wanted a divorce,
consider them separated

I guess its only logical tt
comes May, I would lose e Love of my life
The one who I'll be marryin

I had hopes for e future,
for our future together.
But guess wat?
I screwed it up
all becos I was too harsh
I was too stubborn

I realised my mistakes
& I realised my faults

To tink tt I had to be so rash
so rash to squabble wif her
to completely ignore her
at her most helpless moment

Which lead to her decision
for e both of us

She is the first woman tt actually touch my heart
& I believe she will be e last woman to do so

I really wanted to turn back the clock
& turn back the time
But I know I cant.

I cant ever make it up to her;
I believed
for it was I who was so wrong

But I will always be by her side
& keep on caring for her
& luving her

Til e day, time really turn back..

Pls forgive me, my Luv,
even thou u will never even
see this Tots of mine..

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When u found out u dun matter anymore..

2009-05-13T18:28:00.002+08:00

When u found out u dun matter anymore..

"All along, I am 2nd priority, be it matters, be it people;
& nw, even breakin up wif me
is still 2nd priority compared to others.."

Wat do u do when u found out e one u luv
doesn't luv u anymore?
Wat do u do when she dun
even care to speak to u abt it?

Lost for words..

-
-- 那男子还不懂怀疑---
到底自己是否没出息

The day you moved on

2009-05-11T15:30:00.002+08:00

The day you moved on

- Why you leaving, i all along knew nothing until the day before?

- Wat is e true reasons for ur leaving?
Til nw n I still do not know

- The day ur leaving, i intending to help you move, last minute do i know;
Tat Steve & Amy r coming to help you..

- You asked for the rental, i went out & take;
saw you at the lift, i passed you the $$
n you juz went off.

- All e way, from 12pm , u came back at 2.
Directly wif amy , and wif steve already dwnstairs waiting;
Amy looked at me wif tt face;
n I was uncertain wat went on from 12 to 2..

- We brought your stuff dwnstairs and guess wat,
u carry on talkin wif her?
Felt like an outsider even thou I'm supposed to be ur boyfriend.

- And so off you go, waving me off wif a simple "byebye"

- As I watch frm my corridor, i saw u merrily chattin wif amy
b4 gettin into the car n move off.

Hav I realli made ur stay so bad tts
its seems like a total relief to move out?
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So we started a cold war, it dragged on n on, until our exams over.

- wat live for urself
- wat who right who wrong n it suits u fine
- thks to all who supported you.
- to the one & only

All meaningless hurtful words

all the posts n all e blogs, n the msn convo tt hurts the most.
- you sound so alien
- you sound like we're strangers
Capping it off wif "Dun worry, we will talk"

The war continues til Mother's day,
when i tot you might be feelin low.
Unable to leave u alone,
I relented..

I tried to msg, I tried to call
All for naught & all to no avail..

So after my dinner wif my family,
i went straight dwn

Not knowing where to look,
not knowing how to get to you.

I drank alone, I drank wif frens,
I drank some more, n i dun know wat to do.

Totally unreachable,
i tot u blocked my calls,
I tot wat has happened to you
I tot wat has happened to us

So, I held on,
on e verge of despair.

Den ur sms came,
n ur juz back fomr an overseas trip.

Yes, I knew ur hav sumthin on for sat.
But I didnt knew you went overseas.

No matter how bad the quarrel is,
aint I supposed to knw all this?
I felt useless, I felt hopeless..

So not knowing who u went wif,
where u went to,
how u got home,

throu half stupor and half consciousness..
I replied to ur sms,
trying to hide e pain in my heart..
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I will try my best to be happy,
Wif you not knowing the grief you caused me,
I will try my very best to make e relationship works,
cos I still believe in you..

I am a subsitute afterall

2007-03-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

Tell me, Am I your Substitute?

You wrote & you asked me to read your blog..

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I saw U & UR 'new' Girlfriend the other day

I expected her to be so much more than she was

I check out her style & the way she smiled

The way she moved & the thing she said

The way she looked at me was like, " I've got your man. "

And I was thinking " No, YOU have my WHOLE WORLD. "
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Now I'm asking you.
wats e meanin of asking me to see this in your blog?
R u tellin me u r now single & available?
Wat r u tryin to do,
tellin me all this in front of everyone?
Forcing me to be wif u?

C'mon, grow up pls.
Thank you &
No, thank you'

2007-01-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

2007, New Year, New Club...

To my Brothers and friends,
I have embarked on
my footballing career once more.
I am now offically,
a Manchester United player.

I have a living like a "Xiao Nan Ren" for almost 2months!
OMG..
This "xiao nan ren" concept materialized in my mind
when Miss.L called me up to go out.
I was like broke u know to go out wif gals liao
& she has to call me out at this "poorest" moment in life.

Juz one of the moments in my pathetic life when
I got $$ = no charbos,
I no $$$ = charbos come find me.

Anyway, I was like
"herm, eeeee, ah, orrrrr...."
over the phone when
she STUNNED me wif a "storm bolt".
"Where ur working now?"
"I come fetch u after work?"

U can call me tink too much or low-confidence,
but cmon, a degree nvm, a car?
Within like 1-2yrs of working?!?!

It was den I decided I realli need to buck up.
Actualli still got another instance from
"always my dearest", Miss.W
Saw her in,
a CAR also!
Driving past BP plaza and stoppin to say "hi".
So I bucked up and
wif my talents n skills,
I have come to find Manchester United
who are willingly to sign me on a free transfer.

It was quite easy to find a club.
But, ss long as u can get to the club for a trial,
CFM can get one lo.
U juz hav to display ur skills
& the manager will be impressed.

I also learn tt clubs r actualli very RICH.
They always offered less unless got competitors.

I went for a selection trial at Chelsea, MAn U and Arsenal.
Arsenal was the first I went to,
and I instantly got an offer from Mr.Wenger,
who was deeply impressing by my passing skills.
Den I went for trials at Man U, and Chelsea.

Arsenal offered me quite a lowly sum at first,
but when they heard wat Man U offered me.
(Sir.Alex was also deeply impressed,
but by my goal-scoring powerness)

Arsenal tried to match the salary.
However, when Mr.Mourinho called
and wanted me to play for them.
I was like, OMG.
As earlier on,
Mr.Mourinho tot he only had
Arsenal to vie wif for my services,
he offered me a small token.
But when I told him about Man U offer,
he immediately
increased his offer.

In e End,
it was a salary war
btwn Man U and Chelsea
as Arsenal simply had no way
to match Man U & Chelsea

It was a simple matter actualli,
To play for the club
tt offers e highest salary.

However,
as a young player,
I needed playing time.
After careful advice
from my agent, Mr.Toh.
I decided to play for Man U.

After all,
Chelsea wanted me to
play as a midfielder
whereas at Man U,
I can get the chance to
link up wif Mr.Rooney.

I realli do hope
my partnership wif
Rooney will goes well
& hopefully
we can bring the trophy
home this season..
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Sidenote:
I also have a bet wif Sir.Alex
to score 20goals this season.

Is the world Realli a better Place?

2007-01-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

LIVE WIF IT~~~!

Some people say

"Ren yi bu feng ping lang jing,

Tui yi bu hai kuo tian kong"

Sum pple say

"E world is a better place,

if u look at the little things".

I say, Yea Rite~. Cmon la,

the world is fucked up lo.

"You see things from an optimistic viewpoint" la,

"Better things will come" la~

FUCK YOU>>> bleah~'

How can LIFE be good even in these times,

when sum People say

"The economy r startin to pick up & life will be better."

when all I see is,

the rich gettin richer n the poor gettin poorer?

To all the pple who whine, (unless ur realliii a gal)

Face e hard fact.

The Only People without any troubles r all in the cemeteries liao.

Dead you got it?

Fucking Pissed off DEAD.

But, if u realli like to keep on whinninh & rattling on abt urself,

ur petty troubles (which u tink very BIG)

and ur life so cham (say when compared to Bill Gates?)

Got no shit for you..

Sure, you can be "Happpiieeeeeee" too~

Join the dead!

Fuck off, go jump off or anythin.

You CAN be Happpiieeeee if ur DEAD.

-juz dun haunt me comes the night-

My point is ----> Every1 got problems, face it!

Minor or major problems, but u know wat?

I seriously dun really care,

cm0n, keep ur freakin problems to urselves!

I also got problems wat?

You got, I also got ma.

Wat to do?

Den Every1 tok abt their troubles,

"See who most pathetic" competition ah?

Wats the use of complaining to others ?

Okie, maybe if u r my "dear dear" or "brother", den tok to me~

If not, DUN. period.

I look like Saint.Zhong to you?

Problematic fuckers.

Outside ACT happy, inside not HAPPY,

Inside Happy Outside Not Happy,

Why cannot juz take it like a man?

Outside Inside all not HAppy la~

Like tt more Song rite?

Wait wait, Wat if , wat if ,

u dun knw u Happy or not Happy,

den go die lo~*

Not trying to promote any stupid elite shit here,

if ur not happy wif ur life,

either u take it like a man N LIVE wif it

Or u go jump off la,

((den BELIEVE FIRMLY tt come nxt life, you be born a RICH dickie lo.))

There solved, EASY~

Come to tink of it, realli evny those in the cemeteries leh.. So happy, so troublefree~

And Now, I sound like the kind of people I hate~

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Haiz..

Life still sucks afterall.

Maybe I should juz get a gal.

Afterall, pple call me the 40yr OLD virgin.

Yea, rite..

Interesting Story from Entertainment 100%

2007-01-04T00:42:00.000+08:00

.When the moon falls & the river subsides?.

"Remember the times during primary school, remember when lil boys n girls got paired up together in class. Remember when the form teacher tells the boys to hold hands together, to always protect ur lil girl.
I remember when I used to hold my partner hands during the walk to the canteen for recess.
I remember when I would get the fork & spoon for my partner.
I remember to always stand up for my partner when she got bullied."

Funny how these stuff taught to us from our teacher from young still holds true today.
To let us guys know tt girls are little Princesses
& need to be protected and cared for.

--Optional: Enter Li ShenJie's "Chi Xing Jue Dui" for better audio effects--

Lookin for

GF rite now, pls email ur particulars to:

If_U_realli_believe_it@dumbass.com
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From a idiotic nerdy guy
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Comments --> Ya right...

My mood right now

2006-12-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

In the Mood for Job..."

Been a slacker for too long,

N now I found myself wasting away.

Lost into Oblivion

Wif nothing to hide.

I think I should juz forget..

Forget about this whole bankin shit and juz get a JOB.

So empty, I am nothing. Nothing's left inside me.

So I'm onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can’t explain what happened

And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done

No I can’t?

" How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on as I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna live

How could this happen to me? "

Nothing seems to matter anymore, all my fren's interests..

Studies, Jobs, LuV, Money..

They all had sumthin tt generates their interest,

why am I the only one who hav nothing to crave for?

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Insanity.

Madness..

.
Yes, I am'
And I can’t stand the feeling
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the feeling..

2006-12-09T14:28:00.000+08:00

A Typical Cancerian Traits?

Fun to be with.

Secretive.

Difficult to fathom and to be understood.

Quiet unless excited or tensed.

Takes pride in oneself.

Has reputation.

Easilyconsoled.

Honest.

Concerned about people's feelings.

Tactful.

Friendly.

Approachable.

Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.

Moody and easilyhurt.

Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.

Not revengeful.

Forgiving butnever forgets.

Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.

Guides others physically and mentally.

Sensitive and forms impressions carefully.

Caring and loving.

Treats others equally.

Strong sense of sympathy.

Wary and sharp.

Judges people through observations.

Hardworking.

No difficulties in studying.

Loves to be alone.

Always broods about the past and the old friends.

Waits for friends.

Never looks for friends.

Not aggressive unless provoked.

Loves to be loved.

Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

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Wonder am I realli tt or wtf..

2006-12-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

Audrey Da Jie's Wedding

Wow, Audrey Tan is now offically married at 24yrs of age.. Went to her wedding on sunday, at crystal ballroom. Quite a nice place to hold ur wedding, I give it a 9/10 for the overall ambeience and everythin. Okie, Sorry. Period, I was late, no EXCUSE. but ur bro told me it was the 5th of dec, and not 3rd of dec!!!

Anyway, where's my VIP seat?? lol, in e end, me and rashid sit wif a group of "I am not sure its ur frens or your hubbie's frens". Bleah~ Anyway, long time no see you liao. You have become ravishing, or was it the makeup? Btw, regrading the wedding blessings I gave you all.. (herm, I'm drunk la, I also don't know wat I saying, Steve e Stiff so last mintue record me out of a sudden, so ya. Pls pardon me. So my wedding blessings goes like this..

" Dear Audrey Da Jie, at 24yrs of age, u have offically got married b4 me!!! Now I have no choice but to try to find a wife b4 nxt yr when I turned 24 also. Wahaha, kidding"

Life is full of surprises, the last chat I was talking wif you abt careers and stuff. The nxt thing I know, your brother, came telling me ur gettin married, lol. (Or I didnt update myself often enuff on fenz.blogspot.com? :P)

Hereby sinercely wishing for you and ur husband, Charles, wif my dearest regards, a blissful and everlasting marriage~ :)

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2006-12-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

Old Fren

Thanks for meeting up wif me today, we finally meet again after so long. Seeing you again and talking to you makes me happier, if not forever, at least for the moment.. I understand you have your commitments now, but at least I'm glad you decided to stop shunning me. Its all in the past le and what's past, is past. Doesn't matter who's right or whose wrong, rite?

I hope we can still be frens and maybe catch up wif the rest again once of these days ba. Where the secret seven can be reunited again. Haha.Anyway, may you find ur true love soon and ya, your Dammm Degree, lol.

(But rem, I'll always be in line queueing okie? haha~')

P.S - Til we meet again, and pls respond on msn more often leh, no more shunning liao ah.

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Reflections

2006-11-19T02:06:00.000+08:00

...Reflections...

Seriously, I tink I am a boring person. Always tryin to be sumbody.. I hav no life, being no $$, no Gf, no degree, no nuthin, juz a FAT BASTARD.. To me, most gals r supeficial, no 1 can make my heart beat since she put an end to it.. Frens & Brothers, many. But always sum "chu" pattern here and there & I always hav to "be there".

Anyway, am I a bimbo or a Chao-Lao Kia? Am I simply outdated or too Old-fashion or "Buey Gan" or watever fuck la. I seems to tink tt way nowadays, dun knw why.. I tink I am la. Confirm la, so many people say liaoz. K lo, I buey Gan lo, go live your Happening lives to your fullest lo. Fuck off, dun interfer wif my so-called "UnHappening" life? Different people have diff priorities wat, tts all..

Micheal told me tt I always protrayed the 1 typical cancerian trait tt I cFm do not hav? Why do I have to always listen to people viewpoint? Why do I always hav to be the Wise-Guy? Why do I always put myself in other pple shoes? Why the Hell do I always have to keep listening to people talking abt their fucking selves? Why do I always have to keep smiling when I dun even feel happy? This is not me, I wan to live for myself once and not live for others..

Sumtimes I wonder am I too un-happening or r new age-people too happening for me? Are gals the only objective in life? As in "chiobus"?

Is having a HAPPENING job, a CHIO gf, HIGH pay, YANDAO looks, BIG biceps, realli tt important? Why the HELL muz people compare this compare tt? always talking abt themselves & how to win others, their so called Happening Lives..

Thanks, Mike. U enlightened once again wif u wise words. I used to wonder why you so lucky to be so Potent, but after our discussion last week, I came to realised. Simply put, bec0s U earned it. I am realli proud to be part of the "Micheal Jason" brand. Lolz, lets hope I can find the meaning of my existence in life..

Now tt I become enlightened, I won't be "谜惑" anymore. I'll juz be myself n live my puny life..

Wounds heal & Scars fade,

Live Life for yourself n not for others

给我你的爱,爱,爱, yea'

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1st week at Roma

2006-09-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

Acceptance by club+1st Week at new club, In-Form Roma!!!

Haiz, finally.. after 2yrs of the (S)A(sh)F.cole saga, I finally completed the move to Roma last week. Althrough I would like to go to Chelsea, but Jose Mourinho tink tt I wasn't Gd enuff for them and tt I would have to sit on the bench, so well~

forget it lo'

After 1 week of training wif the team, I realised I couldnt blend into it tt well.. maybe I was juz a small fly tt nobody heard of, tts y nobody wan to pass the ball to me.

I was forced to trained wif the female youth team in the end. It's an insult to me!

Althrough not tt I mind throu, the training is so relax and smoothing, but I am a man of ambitions... I wana break into the 1st team asap...

Luckily, I made a gd fren at the club, whose playing as a "striker" in the company.. we were both accepted by the club as a striker and me as more of a "support striker" last week together. For soccer idiots, juz tink of me as Dennis Bergkamp la~ Anyway, my fren was a very Skillful player, he can hide his presense from the defenders waiting to tackle us and score goals freely~ summore, he can always late for training and sleep thru training AND STILL NOT GETTING FOUND OUT!!! Really a Fox-in-the-box.. but he's still not in the 1st team yet as Roma believes in order to be in the 1st team, u muz be a yandao wif 6packs 1. So, he also wif me training wif the female team.. lol.

CB, damm boring... apart from hav to train wif the female players of the club every morning learning from them the latest developments of the club through GOSSIP this channel, we still had to pratice our "dribbling" and "shooting" skills daily from 2-5pm wif the Princes of Roma, Fran.Totti Wong and Vincenzo MontellaONG.

I was coached personally by Totti and he say "Xiecheng ah, ur hair is too stylish" liao, KNNCCB. U stupid Italian, dun anyhow critize my hairstyle okie? Ur hair also looks lik Wang lee hom...

but wat to do, pple is the Princeee of Romaaaaa~

SHORT but YANDAO

So I started to comb my hair into the last time 60s japanese hairstyle' lol

Lifeeeee's unfair~

Anyway, I was also facing a crsis, both my pal and I as we r Singaporeans, we faced sum troubles communicating wif the majority of players there...

Luckily, there were sum fellow Asians there at the club also. A mixture of japanese, china and vietam, which I juz knw her today.. buden again, we dun knw how to speak their languages..

We r Singaporeans okie? totally cant understand wat they toking abt okie? So its the same...

Ayway, Coach.Luciano came over and told me the club president was very impressed by me last week, when I managed to steal the limelight from the very nose of the England Ex.Captain, David Beckham.. haha, its was a very "song" incident, but I'm scared he will ask the England team to kill me on the field nxt time, so I better shut my mouth as of now...

As of now, I juz wana concentrate on my club football, not tinking of any call-ups to the National

Team yet... summore, sum GIODANO Model keep telling me to settle down and get a "job"...

HOW TO GET??? I'm juz an unknown small fly leh! so many Tottis and Panuccis at my club all drawing much much higher wages den me lo..

How to win, you tell me~

Life Sucks.

Period.

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2006-08-30T16:16:00.000+08:00

"Superiority and elitism exists only as far as there are inferiors"

Someday, we realise that many a time, we often look past our own actions.

We realise our own stupidity, how foolish we were,

in trying to gain attention, fame and the like.

How self-centred and arrogant we were,

clinging onto the tag of superiority and elite to oneself.

Attention is but what everyone needs,

attention is but what everyone strives for.

To despise attention-seekers is to despise oneself,

although, no doubt there are limits and boundaries to where this holds true.

To overly plead, beg, worship, harass for attention is past the boundaries.

Maybe you are in a position of fame, of glory,

a leader, a movtivator famous to the few among ur social circle.

Maybe you are unaware of your own pangs and hunger for attention,

your craving seems absence in the midst of all the suck-ups swarming to you.

But the day you are stripped from it...

the day where your eyes catches nobody,

your speech is but a flimsy, blaring croak that serves to annoy.

On that day will you finally realise your personal folly,

perhaps even become the very people you once despised...

Life Sucks...

Period.

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Office ladies nowadays...

2006-08-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

Office Ladies nowadays...

Seriously speakin, I come to believe in what my Shifu Emperor.Yang told me a long time ago...

---"Haiz~ There are no more decent girls in Singaporele... Painz~"---

Totally true man... Dun know wat e fuck is wrong wif OL nowadays...

2 out of 3 interviews I went for today, I kena their "Evillll Stunts"... Where got tis kind of pple one???

My 1st day after ORD went for job interviews, man, 1st time going for job interviews and I had to kena this Shit?!?

Buden again, come to tink of it. I should be honoured tt 2 Office Ladies do "stunts" on me rite?

I am juz a small fly, how can I even deserve this kind of "God-sent Opportunties"???

C'mon man~ My 1st day interview, I juz wan to seriously get a job and I ended up getting both the jobs and the "JOBS"?!?

I juz pray hard for my both my second interviews wif them nxt monday...

BUDEN again...

Haiz, seriously as an fugly Fuck. I should be glad tt they r doing "stunts" on me rite? Since they r both young and not bad-looking (actualli is chio la, juz tt since they do stunts = minus pts), I SHOULD BE happy ma. I also didn't lose anything wat.

Okiez, Jason,

As the Omni-Potent RUSSELL PETERS said:

"Be a Man~ DooooO the Right Thing."

Wokayz~ I shall " be a man and DoooO the Right Thing"

God bless me, I am a mere mortal man afteralll...

AND I SHALL DO THE RIGHT THING~

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The shit wriiten above is BULLSHIT, do not believe any of it..

If U believe any of it,

U r a piece of "SHIT"..

Resumption of my Blog after ORD..

2006-08-09T02:17:00.001+08:00

My ORD tots:

- This song is exactly my tots on Army...

走过岁月(23yrs), 我才发现世界多不完美。

成功或失败都有一些错觉,

沧海有多广? 江湖有多深?

局中人才了解。

生命(Army)开始情不情愿,

总要过完一生(2years)。

交出一片心(my freedom),

不怕被你误解。

谁没受过伤? 谁没流过泪?

何必要躲在黑暗里?

自苦又自怜...

我不断失望(sign extras), 不断希望, (siam extras)

苦自己尝(suay kena 7), 笑与你分享(heng, onli3)。

如今站在台上(wif my ORD cert), 也难免心慌。

如果要飞得高(ORD), 就该把地平线(tis 2yrs+2mths)忘掉~

等了好久终於等到今天! ORD Loh~

梦了好久终於把梦实现! ORD Loh~ :P

前途漫漫任我闯, 幸亏还有你在身旁...

盼了好久终於盼到今天! ORD Loh~

忍了好久终於把梦实现。ORD Loh~ :P

那些不变的风霜早就无所谓,

累也不说累...

ORD! ORD! ORD!

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Bu hui xiao shi de Ye Wan

2005-08-28T01:19:00.000+08:00

A little thief n My HP~

THIS IS REALLI NOT MY WEEK

Asif gettin fuck by my RSM is not enuff, I had to get fuck E nxt day by E Parade RSM.

Being E idiot I was, of course I fuck-care la'

Sign 7, sign 7 la'

realli did iron my smart4 liao wat?

No brand new uniforms

Wat you wannnn meee to doooo?

N ya knw wat?

Read---> I got praised by E up n coming 3rd Div Commander instead?!

Actualli, I gotta admit I kinda enjoyed army life alreadi. Army is actually nt bad wat~

Free food - thru I nvr eat

Free lodgings - thru no air-con

Everyday juz do SK, go armskote

Juz wait to get Fuck n sign Extras onli maz.

budden again, army is fucked bec0s of sum pple..

E world is ugly also bec0s of sum pple...

Juz wat has this pple hav in their fuckin head of theirs?

All E hyprocites, backstabbin, waiyang kings, thieves summore.

Asif being Gianpeng everytime take ciggie frm me nt enuff, still wan to Gope my HP..

come on la, so lousy also wan to steal?

At least give me back my SIM card, I been treatin u nt bad also wat'

Denial is juz a form of excerise, Im sure sum1 out there will punish u

U may get away now, but 1 day U will get caught 1 lo.

Humans r realli interestin pple. They can realli hide their tots well, man.

Why r there so many hyprocites ard me?

Is it the circumstances tt forces them to?

Or is it in their nature to do so?

I can only ponder..

My SIM card.. sobs.

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getting out is never as easy as falling into love

2005-05-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

Getting out is never as easy as falling into Love

All along i thought i was the perfect boyfriend... when actually i was a horrible one...

I never kept my promises... Im never on time... I was never responsible... I was never ever serious...

FCUK... It was like hitting a brick wall when i came to realize tis... It's so obvious... N I never saw it... til its too late I knew...

I knew I was all those things... But i never did anything about it... I never tot they were important... I always thought I'd have time to change LATER...

Man... How stupid I was... I never want to be those things to her... I love her... But I'm not right for her... At least not yet... I'm so sorry... So sorry becos of what I was... what I guess I still am...

It's funny how I always say I will definitely be willing to change in a relationship... Yes I did change... but definitely not enough...

To Her..

I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... I've failed you...

I have to change... I keep starting on these 'I will change' journeys

but somehow I keep straying away from the path...

I need to realli "start something and FINISH IT!!"

I need to start living... PROPERLY...

I can't have the world revolve around me...

I can't wake up anytime I feel like it...

I can't procrastinate...

I can't joke about everything and not know when to be serious...

I can't.. and I don't want to anymore...

From me..

I used to think wearing stylish clothes or looking good or driving a car or being free from 'rules' or being funny ALL the time or doing whatsoever makes me feel good, makes me good enough f for you... But that's not it...

Being responsible is wat makes me cool... Being independant makes me cool... Being focused on work makes me cool... Being righteous makes me cool... Being your Man makes me feels really cool... I wanna be cool... in your eyes...I don't deny I miss you... I want you to know

I miss you everyday...

For E both of Us..

I guess even if you come right back in, into my life now...

I'd still ask you to give me time...

Time to change into a 'COOLER' person...

I still think of you all so often... And I still miss you everyday...

That's like the least I can do...

And I hope u r happy...

You seems really happy whenever I saw you wif him...

Tat's good...

It's good to know your not going thru what I'm going through...

I prayed for Strength.. for Motivation..

To be COOL.. To be.. a Real Man..

To be..

Wat you call an Responsible Adult...

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21yrs of age...

Yes, I'm officially an adult in the eyes of the law...

But I still wasting my life away..

not excatly the kind of man you would desire

I know but I'll hope

Maybe one day, in your eyes...

I'll finally be "21 years old"..

Finally good enough to be

Ur "ideal boyfriend"...

-Jason-

Tis is juz a reminder

2005-01-26T19:43:00.000+08:00

Not for others...

This is not for others to read, its for me to view on later. By far the most number of dreams N definately 1 of the weirdest dreams N most sensual dream..

Fark it

2005-01-22T03:12:00.000+08:00

FARK IT

I kinda hate everythin revolvin ard me..

hate NS. hate training. hate ppl.

i'm full of anguish, full of hatred..

i'm feelin Farked..

why must everythin and every1 be so goddamn difficult?
i wish to tell E world,
"juz fuck it. go fuck yourself."

Everything N every 1 is collapsing around me...
too much to cope, too little time,
no room to breathe. i'm feelin trapped.
Suffocated. Lost. Confined.
Wif no one to turn to. no one who can understand.
It's during times like this,
all 1 can ask for is a mean vodka and a nice fag...
Perphaps all will seems better. E world will be a better place.
but, i've neither vodka nor fags wif me as of now.

damn..

2005-01-02T15:01:00.000+08:00

Someone's New Year Resolutions

Juz happen to see someone's Resolutions..

Pains me to see her priority list is to be a good gf to that ''bastard''...

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My New Year's Resolutions:
1. Be a good girlfriend to DCY.
2. Spend wisely i.e. do not spend more than earn
3. Save $$$.
4. Make time for family and friends whom I have neglected all these while due to 'busy' lifestyle. eg. visit my grandmother more often.
5. Make time for revision as exams in May will be here before I realise it.
6. Not to skip classes unnecessarily.
7. Learn to cook. ;)
8. Be nice to people who have been nice to me.
9. Be a total bitch queen from hell to people who have been bitchy towards me. (just u watch it.)
10. Get fit. Swim, cycle, rollerblade, play tennis...
11. Lead a healthier lifestyle.
12. Love myself (and others) more.
13. Be more confident, assertive.

45. Buy my Tiffany bottle cap ring. (haha.)

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Wonderin if she ever knows I still like her.. Am I luv sick or wat? haiz...

New unit, New Life

2004-12-25T13:55:00.000+08:00

New unit, New Life

This coming Thursday, I'll be posted to my new unit "Kranji Camp". Cool Man, a new camp, a good 10mins walk frm my hse, great campmates, group instructors, except for mine tt is~ SSG.Lim, die lo''

This 2weeks in Katib Camp was boring yet fun-filled. When I first book in, its was lik "Wa Lao Eh, so regimental 1 ah?" Now it was like "Wa Lao Eh, do anythin, but dun get Caught la~" lolz.

This week in paticular was totally fun-filled! throu monday til wed was boring stuff all the way, where I had super great fun making new frens, N "great" fun gettin Tekan lik siao.. haha.

Suddenly The OC of Artillery??

Its seems lik now I got a new name by my whole course mates, "OC" meanin E head of a Company, haha! Even my sergeants, the OCS trainees living on E same 5th floor as us N my PC all calls me "OC" nowadays.. haha, bec0s of sum stunts I pulled durin the 3-days GPMG lessons.. Now they r all quoting my 1-liners all over the place! wat "Well done" la, wat "Good Job" la, all the fuck shit phrases I used..

It's lik suddenly I've became E most Popular guy in Artillery alreadi, lolz. Sounds a bit BHB sia, haha. Anyway, who would dare to say "well done~" to ur PC when he's giving a lecture halfway to him? Who dares to tell a SSG after he juz do finish S.K "Good job!"?

SEPARATION

Anyway, all of us were divided into 2 units, Katib N Kranji. Almost all my "Xiong Di"s joined me to go Kranji, even throu most of them lives nearer to Katib Camp. lolz, thanks to all of them! But I still tink "Wantin to follow OC wherever he goes til death" is a Stupid reason, hahaha. As I mention earlier, Kranji got gd Instructors except for the COS sergeant major N a SSG.Lim. due to their High Ranks, we all tot tt they wont become any of our instructors. so when my PC introduce them 1 by 1, we all very happy, Detach1 is Serg.Roy la, Detach2 is Serg.Lim la, bla bla bla, all the kind or slack sergeants, den when it comes to Detach4, my DETACHMENT! suddenly SSG.Lim stood up N give a sinister smile towards us!!! EEKS!! No 1 can imagine e feelins the 4 of us, my appointed "PS", Joe, i tink e COS's Joker, throu they still insist it's e OC~, Joseph N Ah Lam, went thru.. We all stunned to e max, while all e others laughin away, lolz. Lost Form! the 4 of us look ard at each other, N guess wat? We burst out Laughin!! I dun knw why, but its so ironic tt we cant help but laugh at our poor selves~ anyway, I tink I'm prepared to sign 7extras ta least le ba, painz~

E downfall of E OC

This friday, was E downfall of the OC.. me! We had a Christmas celebration in camp at the swimmin complex there. There was cheer leading competitions N water competitions all over. Being e OC, I was assigned to lead my BLUE team "The Blue Bird!" in cheerleadin! So, everythin went past peacefully until when all the games ended N came the prize giving ceremony. As I was walkin back to our BLUE team area after gettin the CheerLeading Award, suddenly, I was pinned down by my AS n GS frens, they lifted me up N start to move towards e swimmin pool!

Excuse 1 - "Hey, dun wan leh! I got my cigerettes wif me!"

Response - They took out my ciggie box.

Excuse2 - "Hey, my 11B!"

Response - They took out my 11B..

So they take out all the items in my pockets for me, how Kind-hearted of them! Even strip off my shoes, my shirt, my pants, leavin me onli in my swimmin.trunks! Bish!!!

But as the OC wif great biceps, I managed to pull 1 ger, 1 guy each into the pool wif me. Actually sould hav been another OCS guy but he fucking fit, he knows wat I wan to do, so he shifted my hands to his fren, an OCS charbo, Sharon. Wat a great display of "Qian Kun Da Mo Yi" frm the TaiChi Master, didn't knw OCS got teach Taichi 1.

So I'm e only guy only wif my 2 suay-kias who kena pulled into the water wif me, except they went in wif their shoes, tees N shorts on! wahaha!

So I dried myself up, N wear back my clothings. As I was sittin down again, my OCS "Brother", Eileen Tan come over N sit down besides me.

Eileen - "hey, so wet ah? Why ah? muz lik me ma, dry dry 1, e feelin so nice~"

Jayson - "..."

Eileen - "Eh, dun lik tt la. Come, I dry ur hair for u~"

Nxt moment, all hell broke lose.. B4 I knew I was chasing her away the swimmin pool wif every1 lookin in amusement, sia suay' but I dun care, haha. Finally I caught her N prepare to throw her into e pool when I felt a lot of "Sha Qi" behind me, all the OCS guys were behind me, giving me an EvvilL smileee.. Shit, so there goes, after "Dropping" Eileen into the swimmin pool, I was also kindly "dropped" by the OCS guys into the pool after her.

Morale of E story, neva ever chase a gal ard e swimmin pool. U'll regret it...

Twice, Twice I kena dropped into the pool.. So I went toilet N dry myself N went back in e same drenched attire... I sat down N slack besides her again. We looked at each other, lost form..

Eileen - "Haha, kena twice liao ah, sum1"

Jayson - " Bopian, Yandao is lik tt 1, sure got a lot of pple nt happy wan to 'aim' me 1 la. Too bad, I too Yandao liao~" (in a mixture of Chinese n Hokkien)

Next moment? Off I go into the pool again.. 24th Dec is wat the Artillery.Specs termed as

"E Downfall Of E OC" lolz.

Signs u'r spendin Christmas in SG/Signs tat Santas doesn't Luvs u

2004-12-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

Signs tat u'r spendin Christmas in SG

1. Ah Lians wondering how come Santa’s elves ”dun look like that hamsum Legolas from Lord of the Rings, ha?”

2. Children who think snow resembles either soap suds or Styrofoam.

3. Lots of small guys in green running around are not elves, but national servicemen.

4. Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer detained on suspicion of avian flu.

5. Frosty the Snowman detained for possession of suspicious white substance.

6. Santa Claus is coming to town – but then suay-suay kena detained for questioning on how he entered Singapore territory.

7. Santa later released because he qualifies as ‘foreign talent’.

8. SPGS trying to pick up Santa. Ho! Ho! Ho!

9. Santa not the only one dressed in red and white trying to reach out to the young.

10. Santa's not the only person watching you to see if you’re ‘naughty or nice.’

Signs tat Santas doesn't Luvs u

1. Your letter to Santa comes back with a handwritten note: “Wait long-long!”

2. Your present is ticking.

3. You’re not on Santa’s “Naughty” or “Nice” lists – you’re on his “Si Gin Nah” list.

4. You wake up on Christmas Day and see the words “He sees you when you’re sleeping” written in blood on your wall.

5. When you sit on his lap, he growls, “Eh, Siao eh! Faster get off!”

6. Next to your presents is a bill for shipping, handling and GST.

7. There’s a bunch of elves outside your door who says their “Tua Tao” wants to “settle” with you.

8. When he sees you, he doesn’t go “Ho! Ho! Ho!”, he nods meaningfully and says, “Nehmind…”

9. On Christmas Eve, he comes to your house – and takes stuff.

10. No presents – but there’s a reindeer head hanging outside your front door and sheets of paper with your photo and IC number pasted all over your void deck.

A New Chapter, no more Tekong!

2004-12-17T03:59:00.000+08:00

...A New Chapter, No More Tekong...

The end of BSLC and the start of a new stage in my life as an Artillery.Spec in the School of Artillery situated at Katib Camp, which is quite near my house as compared to Puala Tekong.. Throu I kena missed Sispec's Delta Coy too, all the shit, all the fun, all the "stunts" there, regardless they r done by me or my other platoon.mates..

Went to report to my "new" unit (katib camp is at least 21yrs old) tis mon, N w0w! Got off frm wednesday til sunday?!?!? if nt for the fact tt my bunk.mate who told me actually we should be bookin on the 27th (mon), enjoying a 14 day off, but SISPEC wants us to book in tis monday~ I tink I will enjoy this 5day off more. Nt tt I nt happy wif a 5day break, but man! 14days!! 14DAYS!!! grrrrrr~ I'll tak back wat I juz said abt Sispec, but I still lik Delta CoY, but nt Sispec..

Anyway, its seems lik I had an affinty wif Re-course pple N Regulars in the army. In DELTA, I had a re-course guy for my buddy, (now platoon best in delta ASLC) N Cpl.Teow! my ultimate Smokin BuddY cum Slack.buddy!

So back to it, my new bunk.mates r Cool man, way cool~ Sherman aka The Emperor, is 1 guy who is super duper hardworkin N responsible guy, whom I click wif super well~ Marcus aka "Mark-Zai", is juz lik another Jeremiah! Face alike, voice alike, figure alike, liks to club, sian charbos all this! Wohoo! Another interesting fucker, lolz. HeAn aka "He Shang" as in monk, another regular, this guy here can run man! CCB, 2.4km where got pple run 7.14mins 1??? lolz, same as me, lik to act nerdy, but actually tok a lot of cock too~ N Timonthy aka "Lao Jiao Kia or Lan Jiao Kia" , a recourse-guy who is out for 4months last time for a sprained ankle, but he can still go for his SQUASH tournements in btwn, lolz!!! N lastly, the ChaoKeng king, Slacker, "Lum Nua" of my section, ShangHao. First day bookin, alreadi go see M.O n get ATTEND C, knn! come back wed.morn book out wif me, wtf!?!? Thrashtalker, Bullshitter, this guy knows all the 101 ways to ChaoKeng ur way in army!!!Tink he's gona be my "shifu" for a while b4 I try ti ursurp him N take over his position! Anyway, quite weird tt throu we onli knew each other on monday, but we gel so fast N so well~

Man, I wonder all the crap they tok abt tt time , they will realli do or not? but if they realli do it, den I'll get to watch TV n eat BBQ in my bunk every nite!! hahaha!

Haiz, tired leh.. sianz, pain!

--- "1 round of Arty shell(43kg) away, Sir!" ---

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Paths in Life -- current stage BSLC

2004-11-21T02:43:00.000+08:00

You've come upon a Rough Stretch.

Canyou make it through? You've come upon hard times.
Things aren't looking so goodto you and your life has seem to collapse into a
downward spiral. You've lostyour way and can't seem to find the right path to
take. You are probablydepressed and feeling lonely as you've lost sight
of those who love you. You maywander through this road with a few others like you
and are able to comfort themas they comfort you, but it is not enough. You've
lost something, maybe someoneclose, and with it you lost your faith in life.
You're probably confused andunsure what to do next. But the way will become
clear eventually. It alwaysdoes. This stretch that lies before you seems
never-ending and not worthtraveling. But don't let yourself fall, you may
have stumbled upon this,but pick yourself up as best you can and hold on to
that little bit of faith youhave. The road isn't as endless as it seems. All
things, good and bad must cometo and end. This too shall pass and you'll be
amazed at what good lay beyond itif you just find the strength within yourself to
try and make it.

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The most Suay Week of yr2004...

2004-10-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

27th Dec 2004

---Undoubtly E most Unlucky Week of yr2004 for me---

A week plauged by injures, tekan, extras N SOL leading to sleepless nites of torment N misery (althrou we onli get to sleep abt 4hrs a day) When Nothing..

Nothings goes right for me

...

"14 Days SOL or 3 Extras? Ur Call la! Zhong"--- Staff.Chong

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Sad to say, I hav quite a few number of platoon mates who also tio EXTRAs..

Azmi = 2 extras for losing M16S1 mag durin outfield

Z.Z.Chua (Sadako) = 1 extra for just unbuttoning a button on his sleeve?!?!

Ah.Ben = 2extras for misfiring

Chao.Keng.Cai = 3weeks RT for passin everythin but still fail IPPT (14pts, lolz)

Colin = 3 extras for sumthin to do wif e CLAYMORE mine~

For me, I got 2 extras for sumthin, 1 extra for sumthin.. Try guessin~

If u can guess it, I salute u~

2nd week of BSLC

2004-10-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

Somewhere over E Rainbow~ I'm Fucked UP

Finally! I got a taste of e true meaning of SISPEC, "Suffer in slience, Please Endure Carry on".

At first, I tot "tis week onli 2nd wk wat~ scare meh?" nxt thing i know, I'm in e jungle listening to lectures N demonstrations by my sergs N Sirs on BN (basic navigation) , pui! wan to give lecture cannot give in lec.rooms meh?So garang for wat? Die die also muz give in e jungle~

Anyway, got tis compass course which is supposed to find our drifting tendency when a person walks in 1 direction.. so I'm thrown into a jungle wif a compass to find different chk.pts using the instructions they give to us.. summore still got day N night excerise, wtf!? lucky e chk.pts I found in e nite was correct, else I'll be sent back into e jungle where I cant even see my own hands in front of me! (okay, I cheated, I used e Torchlight sumtimes~)

Ya, I know I shldn't go into so much detail, cos E more I go into it, e more I feel "Fucked Up"

So to sum it up, SISPEC, is realli "packed" (puns intended).. got a IPPT cat.test (tuesday) , IPPT trial test on friday, LAW tech.handling test, BN theory test, BN practical test, morning 4-5km runs as usual N lectures lectures lectures~ oh! I forgot, there's Delta company's favourite training programme, Canteen Breaks~

Anyway, pls vote for my old fren, Leslie's in FHM's 100 girl nxt door! She's no.76, pls vote for her peeps' Ya, come to tink of it, how times flies.. almost forgotton e fun times e both of us had together den.. Pity, I lost her contact since tt fateful night liao le.. haiz.. Maybe Fate shall decree tt our paths will cross once again n we could get back to old times once again~

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2004-10-10T13:44:00.000+08:00

If you wan E Rainbow, you hav to put up wif the Rain

I totally agree tt if u desire sumthin very much, you got to go thru e hardships int order to get it.. but sumhow, after only 1 wk in SISPEC, I alreadi felt the pain~ My company is Delta, the company they say the most welfare company in SISPEC. Pui!

From monday onwards, every morning, I been runnin 3km, den 4km, b4 running 5km frm wed onwards.. I see the other companies all only got wat morning runs which is 0.8-2.4km a day' Welfare.. Pui! Pui! Pui!

"Fucked Up! U'r a Fucked up soldier!" -- courtesy of 1 of my PCs, Warden Lam (Commando, Ex-SOF member).. maybe its bec0s my OC is a commando, 3 out of 4 PCs within the Coy r commandos, tt's y my training is so exciting~ yeah, tt's it! I'm going to be trained lik a commando! wif E exception tt I would hav more canteen breaks den them' we onli asked once for canteen breaks, n my Staff.Serg say "U all wan aH, go la! after 6pm, or RO, I let U all go until U all POK GAI ah~"

lolz, yupez. Tt's the only welfare Delta coy has over the others, but in terms of Xiongness, we r Fucked UP _!_

As of now, alreadi 3-4 pple r asked to OOC(out of course) within E coy liao le. Scared man.. Die die also dun wana OOC.. my buddy, a recourse Guy told me nt to, cos "U'll do SaiKang until U'r fucked up!"

Scared manz~ anyway, shit! I'm late! Bugis in half hr time!! Possible? aiya, can 1 la~ hopefully, I guess?

Alrite, ends my 1st week, "End it wif a bang" -- PC Ah Huat frm Bravo Coy~

Quote of E day~

Award goes to Warden Lam, Commando cum SOF member.

"1 mind 1 body",

"1 dick?"

"1 pussy!"

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Boringness..

2004-10-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

Boringness..

Why is life startin to get boring nowadays? I feel so sianz, so tired, so lethargic Abt Every single thing I do.. Juz basically going thru E motion of things only. As such, I juz wana to find a small cosy concealed place to relax N heck care of the things happening ard me. Maybe occasionally coming out of tis shell of mine to keep myself updated of things ard me' Feelin very saturated as a person alreadi, maybe saturated is nt a gd term to describe myself now, but maybe it's sumwhere there le.. Juz wana heck care things, but the consequences r Great.. pls, I juz wana live a simple life.. When will I ever get to live my life the way I wan it?

Tomorrow, it's back to square 1 for me again, Tekong stage 1, BSLC..

Hope I'll survive..

P.S (Rach-if u'r readin tis, msg me k? Dun call.. in Tekong by den' Miss ya, heaps')

Cannonball

2004-10-02T13:38:00.000+08:00

A song tt reminds me of an old Friend, Rene
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy'
Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Wat is this?!?! SISPEC??

2004-10-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

Wat is this?!?! SISPEC?!?!?
As of now, I am feelin very Sianz.. Knn, I alreadi signed tt time tt I wanted to be a "Man" n guess wat? Kena SISPEC... bloody hell, so Far away Tekong, sianz la. SISPEC = Suffer in slience, please endure carry on~ sianz sianz sianz. Wat kind of theory is this? I juz wan to be a MAN nia, "see me so high" for wat, go wat SISPEC..
Frm the west to the east is where my 2nd home will be for the nxt 5mths... Painz~

I'm back!!!

2004-09-30T11:00:00.000+08:00

I'm Back!
POP lo.. POP last friday but times flies N now today is already Thursday. Getting my posting on friday,N I nt too sure will I get into Miltary Police or nt. Deciding to be a "Man" in the army was a decision I believe I wont regret. I hope? Simply not wantin to be a "Commander" was E main reason why I chose to be a "Man". hahaha, N e reason is bec0s if I kena Sispec, Tekong again for 5mths. So far! If kena OCS? sure, its near my hse, but 10mths of training? Siao!
In the end, I decided to try my Luck, N be a "Man". Trying to "Pou heng suay" tt I'll get into a unit near my house! Til tomorrow, come make my day..

Most Tiring Week of BMT??

2004-09-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

Most Tiring Week of BMT??
This week is practically the most "Xiong" week of BMT so far, as I deem it.. 2 SOCs, 1 IPPT cat.test, 2 BCCT lessons wif rifle lessons + BAC (basic assualt course) and GAC (Generade Assualt Course).. tired sia'
summore, BAC is on wed!!! let me intro u guys on wat is BAC, it is a 100m distance course wif sum obstacles and a few targets u muz hit using "rifle fightin techniques" learnt from BCCT, nt to mention doing Leopard Crawl, Baby Crawlin etc in the muddy soil under barb wire so close u hav to use ur rifle to push them up~ by the time we do finished the BAC, every1 was covered in muddy soil and our SBOs!!! all covered in smelly mud.. throu its fuckin Dirty, but den its fun la ah' but the FUN part comes when every1 goes back to our bunks to wash up.. Unfortunately, I was 1 of the toilet cleaners.. so wif every1 bathing there, washing their clothes N SBOs... our Area Cleaning the next day was SUPER HIGH~ hahaha
Throu its very tiring, at least I dun feel bored frm bookin til wed.. the dwn pt of tis week is when I over-strained the left shoulder which I injured frm field camp til now.. so I had to report sick.. when I came back, den I knew friday got IPPT test... sads, tts means I cant take N cant hav a chance to see how I hav improved til now..
During the test on friday, I was stunned by many pple who frm 2-3pull ups suddenly can do 6-7pull ups liaoz.. lolz. by now I was a little threatened by the vast improvement of my platoon mates liao.. summore, when 2.4km comes, KNN the whole platoon passed!! a lot of pple whose timing were around 11-12mins suddenly all shoot to 10mins plus, many also even surpassed my timing of 10.07mins!! sads' summore, thoses timing around my timing guys all suddenly shoot to 9:40-9:50mins!! I was super STRESSED by now, n my buddies consoled sayin since every1 got improvement, den I also surely will hit 9plus mins 1.. but deep dwn in my heart, I dun tink so bec0s I been eatin a lot during nite times in my bunk recently.. haha tink I hav to settle for a Sliver for my IPPT liao le, as I'm nt sure when my shoulder will recover so tt I can hit Gold standards for my pull ups.. but even if my shoulder recoveres in time, I still got my 2.4km to improve frm 10:07mins to at least 9:44mins to get Gold... how to improve in 1week???
The final stake in my coffin was tt I sprained my ankle today during soccer wif the Lam Soon Gang.. wtf?? sibei Dulan!!!!

NNT notice:
Yam 1 more stuff to add.. Went town to celebrate Desmond's birthday.. along the way, Eush told me there was a rift btwn NNT members.. seems tt its over 1 girl.. haiz, I realli wonder why Brothers so close can fall out over 1 girl.. but I'm nt in a postion to comment much as I dun get the full story frm both sides.. I onli hope the 2 will resolve tis soon.. N a note to the rest of the NNT, dun start takings sides here n there maz... try to help resolve the matter maz. haiz... but things were nt so awkard when we met up.. throu there sum sort of invislbe wall btwn the 2 of them.. but my guess is they will get over it soon.. after all, I dun believe NNT will break up.
---NNT ruleZ f0reVeR!!!---

Wat's Range??? Tired sia...

2004-08-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

Wat's Range??? Tired sia...Too tired to write anythin le... super tired N sleepy... niteZ peeps'
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This This Week~

2004-08-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

This This Week~

From Sunday night til tuesday evening, been slacking, sleeping, stoning in my bunk while 70% of my platoon went for their situation.tests.. me N the rest got Grad.Ceremony so we siam the test~ Wohoo! (tts wat I tot~).. den summore I dun knw why I siam almost all of the "Sai Kang"s, lolz. den book out Tuesday evening to go for wed's grad.ceremony.. Grad.Cermony was lik tt lo, meet up wifmy classmates, tok cock, take pictures wif them N watched a girl happily everafter wif her new BF~ lolz... Den went off wif Ray N Richard to eat N tok cock, b4 the they go watcvh "Alien VS Predator" while I chiong home to prepare to book in.. Knew I couldnt make it in time for the 730pm ferry, remembering wat Serg.Lee told me, juz call back Company N inform the COS... I called.. heres the excat conversation~
Jayson: "Halo, Bravo Company? This is Rec Jayson.Zhong from Bravo platoon1, section4..."
COS Lim: "Jayson ah~ haha.. Okie okie, I know wat u wan liao"
Jayson: "Huh? But Sergeant.."
COS: "Aiya, I know wat u wan la..."
Jayson:"But, but"
COS: "Juz tak it as I know liao okie? Bye~"
End of conversation: wtf?!!?!? haha, he also quite joker sia' but I dun mind~ So I decided to skip the 830pm ferry as well N take the 930pm last ferry~ lolz
As I took the 9:30pm ferry back to Tekong, suddenly Fuming called up N say tomolo morning we take sit.test... Instantly sianz half, reached Company at 10:05pm.. after the S.O.P by COS.. went up alreadi 10:10pm.. left 5mins to pack my field pack for the test, N bathe etc... so pack m bag in the dark lo.. den cannot sleep summore.. so end up nxt morning a Tired, Shoulder Injured Jason, wifout 2 days combat rations, cos he lazy to tell sergeants he didnt recieve the food~ lolz..
The situation test is bloody tiring.. now too tired to write.. I'll post it after I book out nxt friday when I completed my range week ba~ tired sia, juz got home today(sat) at ard 730pm.. tomolo afternoon book in again.. den mon til wed range, = 3hrs sleep a day... tired leh~ see ya guys!

Last last week~

2004-08-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Last Last Week~

Went to chiong wif Shisi N her CO. plus Huishan N the Girl Guides Gers.. Supposed to be a brother outing as well, wif the 4 Brothers out to enjoy~ In the end, Brother Yeo saddened by the news me N Eush had for him, dun wan to come out after the steamboat dinner.. haiz~ makes me feel guilty.. Den Rash N Eush came, but I came late. In the end, had to make up to both the parties, haha. Surprise~ Huishan's bday tt day plus FengQun's bdae tt day, so meaning got 2 bday gers! Den in the end, K Thing N HanBing they all wan to accompany us go another pub, since the que for theirs is too long~ but in the end, we went our seperate ways~ paisei hor, Huishan~ den we went double O lo' den Rash "throw smoke bomb" N escape back to home~ left me N Eush~ lolz. den we go dance N drink til siao b4 1hr the club closes, we start operation "FQ drunk".. lolz. For a girl, actually she can drink quite well~ but, haha' still die in the end~ no 1 can survive an operation by the Brothers' den sianz half, didnt expect the others to sabo me, asked me to send her home, sads' but forget it, the rest I dun wan to say~ after sending her home, tant at Eush's home~ cos dun feel lik going home' den nxt day bookin le..
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Summary of Field Camp..

2004-08-10T05:15:00.000+08:00

Summary of Field Camp..
Juz a brief summary' too much shit to tok abt if I were to go into details..
Sunday (Day1, 1st August):
Set off to the site (salabin or wats0ever), on the way there, rain.. reach there still rain, whole day, Rain~ Rain stop, pit bashaw~ den go sit on the muddy canopoy to listen to lecture..den Rain again, so do our practises in the rain, kena tekan in the rain.. 6pm, went to sleep N halfway, it rain.. so = wake up to find myself all drenched, muddy all over~
Monday:
Rain again~ take Concealment test, den learnt lectures b4 going to practise them again~ kena tekan by Sergeant again~ Nite? Rain again~
Tuesday:
Change site, go to a better place.. at least its forested area, no need sleep on rocks N mud anymore, but infested wif grasshoppers N mosqitoes~ Today's tekan more jialat den ever, maybe becos started learning Section Movement liao le, so even more strict, but I tink my sec.com now treat me differently, he seems to tink I am 1 of the best pple in the platoon le, jialat.. (tink its becos I enjoyed the Section Movement, so I chiong all the way tts y he tinks I'm a Garang Soldier ba') so, practise all the way frm morning til 6pm.. went to sleep happily tinkin the day is over. But den again, whole company kena tekan, cos sum fuckers neva observe their light discipline, anyhow shine torchlights.. so give us 1 x JIALAT tekan..
Wednesday:
Some last lectures in the morning + 1 BIG TEKAN for the whole company bec0s sum fuckers in the company never dig shitholes to shit into at the shit area, so the whole company all fall in at the Shit Area.. there, we kena pumping at 1st.. I was lik, "Lucky I got my gloves on!) as the ground was bloody soft N sticky, but den.. ccb, the platoon4 PC suddenly asked us to do crunches! WTF?!?! den do Jumping Jacks la, Alt.Leg thrusts la, so fucking digusting lo.. had to change uniforms after we finished section movement at 6pm.. den changed site tonight~ had to go there in File Formation which is very boring but lucky is walk there in SBO attire(skeletion battle order).. went to this wat house 1 ah, den get to sleep under shelter for 1 night.. but super dusty the place~ And during RO(last parade), ccb, I kena chosen as platoon IC' wtf? I always tot it be Azmi who will kena, cos he is considered to be the leader of our platoon.. the pattern is 1day change 1 platoon IC, so tomolo's thursday, so its section4 (my section) turn 1guy to be platoon.IC lo.. wonder why me, sads..shouldnt be so Garang during section.movement...
Thursday:
Morning wake up, had to change site again~ the distance was abt 3km plus only, but the journey there is Long N Pain~ bec0s we had to be in FBO(full battle order) den walk there in File Formation... summore, along the way, had to suddenly take cover at the sides of the track, in either proning, squatting or kneeing position, cannot sit! Den got 1 part, fucking hell, high-knee position for almost 1/2hr! In FBO, I calculate: field pack abt 8kg, nt including the combat rations, rifle abt 3.6kg, SBO = 3kg plus I rem' Super High ah~ summore still got the Nice Helment to wear~ lolz
Once reach the place, at abt 11plus, btw, my daily meals r 2packets of biscults, 1 fruit bar + Tekong Magic plain water!) cos I dun wan to shit, haha. Its enuff having sandfly bites, mosquitoes bites N rashes all over ur body le, so I dun wan to kena bites on my ass as well~ :P after tt, we dig, dig, dig fire trenches, 1 section 1 trench.. nt so bad la, considering must reach the tallest man in the section shoulder level, N the guy is 1.97m tall~ nt too bad la, !@$#%#^$^ den every1 start to dig their shellscripts (dun noe how to spell), basically a shallow grave for u to sleep inside at night.. well, halfway, rain again.. den I dig the hole 1 time, the rain water help me fill it up again, so the cycle goes on N on, til the rain stop, b4 I redig all over again' Finally, 6pm came.. but bec0s neva dig finished, so muz still dig, else no place to sleep, so most of us dig til 10plus b4 we sleep', worse part? My Sec.com didnt tink there was a need to change platoon.IC, den KNN I had to do another day..
Friday:
Fall in at 5am den changed site again~ again walk in FBO attire, again walk in File Formation, again high-knee postion for almost 1/2hr~ so bloody Shiok ah' reach our last destination, den we take all our Range Card test, Section Movement test, bla bla bla~ funny thing, my Sec.com didnt ask me N another guy, Azmi (my Sec.com rated highly 1) to be the Section.Commander during the sec.movement test.. is it he tink we 2 gd enuff no need take or he tink we r not leadership pple, I dun know~ Anyway, finished the tests den we started our "War Games"..
As my platoon is chosen to act as the enemy, we be fightin against the other 3 platoons (platoon2,3,4), so we move to another nearby location.. at 6pm, we start our attacks! The war game was fun, only down pt is that the place was bloody infested wif all kinds of insects! When I prone on the ground taking cover beside a tree, I saw 1 big Spider rite in front of me! So I instant use my rifle N shoot it! some of my frens more stunning~ they prone directly onto an ant nest~ lolz after the battle, in which we won, we went back to our location to sleep N await the other platoons to attack in the moring~
Saturday (2am, ThunderFlash OP):
suddenly there was a big fucking loud noise (a thunder flash can tt acts as a bomb N emits a loud sound).. there it is, our Thunder Flash operations~ "all fall in FBO here now, platoon1!!!" was bascially wat my sergeants, PS n PC was shouting among the noise of the numerous Thunder Flash bombs they threw at us.. so of cos we sure cannot make it in time la.. somemore so dark, cant see a shit, in the end when we all fall in, I didnt hav my field pack on cos sum fucker took it, den sum others were missing stuff here and there~ So I kena pumped 1st for nt having my field pack, den sergeant.Arfan asked me to find my fieldpack 1st b4 pumping, den 1 fucker got an extra bag which is nt mine N juz threw it onto my back while I'm in push up postion, so I sure kena flatten N sprawl there on the ground.. lolz, nice 1 there, dude~
So, my PS come fuck us 1st la, say wat we give sluggish movement la, give attitude la, etc.. verdict? 20push ups, 20 crunches, 20 alt.leg thrusts, 20 jumping jacks N 20 squats.. all done in FBO attire... sads' juz when we tot its over, serg.Mervin come to fuck us, so another 20push ups, 20 crunches, 20 alt.leg thrusts, 20 jumping jacks N 20 squats again~ but this time in SBO attire.. better a bit.. juz when we tot over le.. serg.Arfan turn to tekan us, so the same 5 sets again.. den, serg.Khan's turn, serg.Daniel, Serg.Ong.. and finally, another 1 x Jialat one by PC... super shragged ah... den we went back to sleep at 4am lik tt after this nice 2hr tekan session by our beloved sergeants~
Saturday (morning):
Start our War Game, now our turn to defend, N we lost.. den pack up everything... field pack put onto tunnel to deliever back to company.. b4 we set off on a trail N walk to SISPEC's area to take our BIC... damm, my left elbow was all abrasion after the thing while sum others got cuts here N there.. finally, FIELD CAMP IS OVER~ took the tunnel back to company line.
reach company at 12plus, tot we had lots of time until 630pm book out.. Bloody hell, go up rest 15mins, come dwn clean rifle all the way til5plus!!! wtf?? den no time alreadi still hav to go eat dinner at the cookhouse.. by the time we came back 555plus, left 20mins plus to unpack my stuff, clean my boots N field pack, do area cleaning, where got enuff time?!?!?! in the end, kena late book out, KNN.. sergeants purposely wan to tekan us 1...
tts all guys! But seriouly speakin, I realli enjoyed Field Camp, there's only 3 downs abt it, 1st = the shitty tekan we kena for the shit incident, 2nd = the sandfly bites!! and lastly, the ThunderFlash Operations~ lolz, if not, I totally enjoyed it' I can tahan eating only biscults and nt the rations given to us, I can tahan tekan, its juz the 3 things above I find yuckys~ feel free to remind me abt it~ I meant "Ask"

Field Camp Ended...

2004-08-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

Field Camp Ended...
Juz got home, lazy to write any shit.. write now will also wan to puke. nxt few days ba, guys'

Poem from Denise's Blog

2004-07-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

A poem taken frm Denise's blog~
When life was simple (A poem)
A computer was something on TV
From a science fiction show of note
A windows was something you hated to clean
And ram was the cousin of a goat.

Meg was the name of my girlfriend
And gig was a job for the nights.
Now they all mean different things
And that really mega bytes.

An application was for employment.
A program was a TV show.
A cursor used profanity.
A keyboard was a piano.

Memory was something that you lost with age.
A CD was a bank account.
And if you had a 3 1/2" floppyYou hoped nobody found out.
Compress was something you did to the garbage
Not something you did to file
And if you unzipped anything in public
You'd be in jail for a while.
Log on was adding wood to the fire.
Hard drive was a long trip on the road

Weight of the World

2004-07-19T13:51:00.000+08:00

Weight of the World
when the weight of the World is upon ur shoulders.. Balance is of Utmost Importance'

2nd disruption test failure.. Again'

2004-07-17T14:11:00.000+08:00

2nd disruption test failure... Again'
Sucks, failed my 2nd N last disruption test... sads' I realli tink its Heaven's will tt I failed both disruption tests.. 1st test = all thanks to platoon2 P.S Jason.. Nows, its platoon 2 sergeant Max.. summore, Heaven is really GOOD to me on tt day.. fell sick juz E day b4 the test wif a fever, serious flu N cough.. Knn'
But surprisely I got 5pts for SBJ, Shuttle.Run N sit-ups, and a timing of 10.07 for my 2.4km run.. The stunt of the test is the chin-ups station.. knn, I do my 1st pull up N I heard sergeant.Max said "no count", so I did 7 pull ups in total, tinkin let him minus 1pull up, I still get 6 to disrupt.. when I look at my scoresheet, knn, he wrote a bloody 5 inside.. wat E fuck, den I go do other stations, all the P.Cs, P.S n Sergeants all asked me to retake pull ups.. so I went juz b4 2.4km lo.. den tt serg.Max purposly aim me, cos I heard him sayin to the other sergeants "so where is this so call 7 chin ups guy?".. so I knew he dulan me alreadi.. but I went cos I believe got so many sergeants there, he 1 person cant aim me right? so again, I did 7 pull ups. This time making sure I hang on the bar 1st b4 I go up, but bloody hell! After I went off further a bit, I see him tokin wif all the rest, in the end I still kena minus 2 pull ups.. wtf.. but hey, life always have miracles rite? My P.C "Ah Huat" juz b4 2.4km run told me to look for him after I run finished N he will test me himself. So after lunch I went to find him lo. This time I did 6 N he said okay. But too late.. it's really Heaven's decree tt I should fail.. cos I went to see the M.O after lunch to get sum medicine b4 I came back, den after my P.C approved of my pull ups, fuck... all the results had alreadi been tabulated into the cpu system.. den my P.C n P.S consoled me wif this saying tt I WILL REMEMBER FOR LIFE.. "In the army, you can only LAN LAN SUCK THUMB". sads sads sads' train so hard in the end, still failed, chao chee bai. Also, P.C told us our field camp is on our 2nd week of BMT (1st Aug), den 3rd week = range, 4th week = situation tests... wow, all the most important stuff all came in the 1st 4 weeks, lolz. does tt means after the 4th week = slack til siao all the way?!?!? if not, also Lan lan suck thumb~ Haiz, a note to my friends who haven enlist yet, treasure ur freedom... Final note to all platoon2 sergeants N P.S minus P.C delson(cos u r my friend) = fuck u all, I will train until I can do 20plus pull ups N do in front of u all! FUCK U ALL!!!

Lan Lan Suck Thumb~ ---P.S Chong

IPPT failure~

2004-07-11T02:11:00.000+08:00

IPPT disruption test failure~
This week is sads' Garath N most of the gang all managed to disrupt except me.. lolz. KNN to platoon2 P.S Jason!!! Fuck U' Haiz, U Jason, I also Jason, tekan me for wat??? got 5pts for all except pull-up u know!?!?!? I did 6 (throu E last 1 i admit was a bit half fuck), but he minus 2 away frm my score!! N guess wat? I kena stunned by my own Buddy, Zai! I pretend to ask Hong how much I did, when Hong abt to say 6 for me, Ah Zai go n say 4... saddenings.. sianzation'' so off went my gd pal, Garath, Hong as they all disrupted.. sum other pple lik me, whose did half fuck pull ups, all managed to cheat their way out of Tekong except me.. BETRAYED by my own buddy' Haiz~ I reckon he wans me to accompany him ba, since he is a ZERO Fighter~ lookin to disrupt tis coming Friday but sianz la, muz book in by e 20th, sads. Anyway, was the best runner for 2.4km in my platoon but my timing is 10:20mins, tts quite gd for me considerin I only CHIONG my pull ups tis week.. but Haiz, cannot disrupt..
so my section only left 7 pple, when Stand by bed comes, sure die.. 7 - 3(includin me clean toilet) - (1=rubbison N staircase IC) - 1(corridor IC) left 2 pple to clean E entire bunk~ wohoo! Song ah, today kena pump lik siao~ only got 5-10mins clean toilet den go ROAD MARCH, come back left 1/2hr to pack bag, clean toilet + change attire~ lolz.
So book out, went to eat wif Jin N the rest of the tua paikias den go home. Rest a while, go out to buy stuff wif WJ n WQ' juz reach home, Eush say reach in 15mins time~ lolz, den went meet him. Kena TUA by Rashid N Jianquan~ haiz haiz haiz'' nxt week, I MUST DISRUPT!!! CHIONG AH~
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Once I hav my Pink IC, now I hav 11B~
Got no time for chocolate bar, but got time for chin-up bar
Got no time to masterbate, but got time for stand by bed
hey hey hey ya~ hey hey hey hey!
Hey lo hey lo wa~
Hey hey hey lo wa~
Hey hey hey ya'

Recollections..

2004-07-04T15:07:00.000+08:00

Recollections..
Wat I once possessed i hav lost,
Wat I had Lost i once Cherished
Wat I cherished is wat I missed dearly..
Be it my freedom, my life or my dearest You'

Another Week Passed

2004-07-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

Another Week Passed...
Pain, another week has passed, this week is supposedly a "lobo = slack" eek, but well.. u know la, neva take things for granted in e army.. lolz
Monday: rehearse for COC parade lo... den sianz half, so tired liao, got SOC training.. slack out..
Tuesday: rehearse N more rehearsal.. den take IPPT spec.training(trg). feelin a bit sick liao by now, becos kena E "TEKONG COUGH", sianz
Wed: COC parade!!! time passed easily, but hey hey.. juz when platoon2 P.S promised us, COC pple we dun need to clear up the parade square, hey hey' platoon1, my platoon happened to be the duty platoon tt day... CCB, so off we went to do "Sai Kang". Another saddening thing, KNN.. I tink my PC N PS tinks highly of me.. jialat, night time, they called a handful of pple (6 in total) to go their office, den tok to us abt OCS... KNN, "Ji Bai Sie Liao"
Thursday: supposedly LOBO, but kena go do SAI KANG again~ + another SOC training' 1 more STUNT, my fren told me when at around 2-3am, he toking on phone hear me clap my hands twice N say "BRAVO!", lolz. tts our procedure to follow if we kena PUMPING.. lolz, tink I getting SIAO liao la, haha
Friday: Yeah, slacking day, til now whole week neva kena Tekan by all my segeants, lolz. This whole week overall very fun, but super tiring, cos this week is EXCUSE Lower Limb week, so they whack us Upper Limn vey jialat.. den night time went to support BRAVO VS KILO in a friendly match. Players = PS, PC, OC, sergeants. Khan is really powerful~ 1 man team can actually challenge KILO last yr champs, throu we lost 3-1 in E end.. ya, N a riot almost broke up, cos KILO recruits took their flag N try to come up to our support strand, so a scuffle broke up~ lolz. OC den came to broke up the mini-riot, N the KILO pple I tink sure kena FUCK by their sergeants.. lolz'
Sat: lucky neva kena GUARD DUTY, but lik tt = nxt week higher chance to tio G-D.. sumore, I tink I will fail the disruption test nxt week, haiz.. Impotent~ no disruption for me le, Sads'
Anyway, at least today managed to watch Siderman2 den buy all my remaining Army.stuff b4 going to sing KTV, juz got home nt too long ago~
haiz, army.. suddenly feel impotent, most of my gd frens mostly I tink will cfm disrupt 1 le.. especially Garath, 15pull up fucker~ lolz. Fuck off fuck off -- Sergeant Ong~

Summary of 1st 3 weeks

2004-06-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

Summary of 1st 3weeks
Life is NS is fine N well, totally enjoyed gettin "Tekan" everyday by my PC, my PS, my segeants N my Sec.Com.. Life in BMTC is happening, washin toilets, cleanin the bunks N gettin pumped never fails to make me "HIGH". I totally enjoyed the feelin of nt knowing if I can book out or not at all every Sat.morning bec0s of STAND BY AREA~ I am PROUD to be a "Chao Recruit", I am "PROUD" to kena by PS to represent BRAVO company for the COC parade as tis juz means more "Sai Kang" to do. Overall, I enjoyed being at Puala Tekong~
New Stuff Learnt frm my Sergeants, PS N PC:
PC: Learn how to answer my own questions after I said them
PS.Chong: how to tok cock in a Lao Ah Bei manner
Sergeant.Khan (Sec.Com):
Learnt numerous phrases tt includes "you all sounds like pussies", "fucking cheebai", "When I say FLY, u all better FLY~" N lastly how to play soccer like GOD' lol
Sergeant.Eugene: learnt tt NERDS can become sergeants too
Sergeant.Ong: learnt how to improve my medicore command in English by adding a "Fuck" or "Fuck Off" in watever u say N how to flash ur pearlys whenever Tekaning recruits.
Sergeant.Mervin: How to run SOC in 7mintues time (I Kowtow to You, Sergeant)
Sergeant.Ah Fan: How to endure 5 water.parades without going to the toilet
THANK YOU, DEAR SERGEANTS'
I am looking forward to tomolo's book in day~
BOOK IN SONG
Tomolo is my book in day, book in book in, tomolo is my book in day, book in book in day' HEY
Again SOC, again IPPT~
Tomolo is my book in day, book in book in day, HEY!

Today is my book out day~

2004-06-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

Today is my book out day~ Book out, book out' Today is my book out day~ Book out book out day'
Okie, after 3 weeks of gettin fucked by seagants, listening to my bunkmates' cock, 3 smoking breaks a day, making sum good frens N meetiN sum Fuckers N Chao Geng Kias, I managed to book out successfully.. lolz
But fuck.. tomolo bookin in again...
--Tio Arrowed--
CCB, kena chosen by platoon2 P.S to represent BRAVO (my company) in the dumb COC (change of command) for E "Tua Tao" of BMTC.. sianz half. This time sure die, cos I was selected to go for the inter-company drills competition as well in august lik tt... ccb, cant siam liao, should hav anyhow drill tt day..
End off
Hope I dun kena SISPEC or OCS... I juz wana be a storeman''' Pain~

Interview's over, Napfa coming up next'

2004-06-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

Interview's over, Napfa coming up next'
Alrite.. today's interview went quite smoothly, tink the Madam quite impressed by me, but got 1 small error. Cos I tot will conduct eye chkup so I told her my degree which is lik got 1 eye overshot (550)? den in e end, never chk eyes.. ccb, shld hav juz fake her manz.. Also, the damm interview took super long. Reached at 930am, End at 430plus.. Summore, hav to be a gentleman N wait for my new found fren, Jasmine.. Cant believe it man, today got 61 pple come for interview.. more stunning was of of tis 61pple, got 15or16 gers?!?! speechless, tot only guys sign up onez.. Weny was rite after all, she wont be the only ger I knew tt signed up wif SPF liao.. Den went to buy sum army stuff N surprisingly, Rene came to accompany me. But realised we lik hav nuthin much to talk abt le.. Haiz, forget it ba Jason. U r going in army alreadi liao, wat can u offer pple? U r juz Worthless! Get it! Worthless!! Useless BUM
C'mon, Lazy BUM, forcus on ur Napfa tomolo!!! FORCUS FORCUs FORCus FORcus FOrcus Forcus forcus...

Interview

2004-06-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

Interview tomolo, here I am nt sleepin..
Got an interview tomolo N here I am nt sleepin, wat am I doing? sianz
dumb week ahead..
tomolo = police interview
wed = napfa test
thurs = enlisted into army OR deferred frm Army
fucking hell, keeps me on the edge.. time passes so slow, juz hurry up la.. I dun wan to be here, tinkin I'm going in or nt.. damm..
Juz done a "color survey" --- tells u wat colors look best on u.. link below
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Results:

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No life, ain't Nothing

2004-06-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

Life sucks, ain't Nuthin at all

Alrite, I admit it.. Life sucks.. Okie, maybe nt for others, but it sucks for me' Going NS soon on the 10th of June wif My gf still tinkin of ditchin me or nt, Cool! Wif all my frens either workin their butts off or gettin mushy all over wif their gfs "tian mi mi" while I'm basically stoning my ass off on E bed everyday. No gf, no frens, no $$$, no life.. No nuthin, no shit' Wat is the world coming to? U guys can juz call me a freakin piece of shit frm Chinatown.. 1 word = Life sucks but who am I to complain? Well, cos I sucks'
Denise = I posted sumthin on my blog liao, cant say its dead liao ah.

The True Self within the Mirror

2004-05-27T04:53:00.000+08:00

The True Self within the Mirror

For so long looking into the mirror
I saw a reflection of an image,
A stranger looking back at me..

As I look into my eyes,
I saw only emptiness from within..

Beneath those eyes were my fears,
E fear of Sorrow,
E fear of Pain,
E fear of Despair..

How could I not know this face before me,
As I stood looking at the reflection in the mirror?

Where was the Person I used to be,
Why couldn’t I see him again?

Turning round, looking into the mirror once more,
I saw my life.
A Life that has gone out
A Life that has been extinguished.

And now all my pride,
And all my joy,
My hopes, my passions,
My dreams,
All destroyed.

What reflected back from the mirror
Was a stranger looking back at me,
just an empty shell of my being.

Standing there once more,
Deserted and isolated.
The feeling set back, where was this person
I once called ME?

Walking away from that image,
Not wanting to take another look,
I carried on wif my life..

Through the hurt and pain,
Endless torment and suffering,
The sleepless nights where I wallop in despair and no one heard.
The pain slowly fades,
but the scars still remain.

The truth finally sank in on me..
It took many setbacks and disappointments
To find the true me.

No longer am I just the image in the mirror
I am the reflection of my life,
E past,
E future,
E present,
And the reflection of our endless Love..
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Doomed Love?

2004-05-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

Wishful thinkin
Tot tt I found LuV, only to find tt its juz wishful thinkin on my own part..
Tot tt I found heR, only to realise I'm nt the one for her..
Tot I finally found luv frm within her, only to find out in the End
We are juz not meant to be.
Throughout tis Luv cycle,
I've never been a good bf.
Tryin to learn how, but still nt gd enuff
Now it's up to her to consider abt us..
N within tis period, my life's one total wreck..

Tired N Sick

2004-05-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

Sick N Tired' Juz had abt enuff..
---Yesterday---
Dun know wat came over me.. I'm juz feelin sick N tired of my life.. Yesterday tio stunt as well.. if no1 to accompany me, Rashid bro LAZY to meet me N all my gd brothers in E world all suddenly MIA, I went to lot1 wif Shawn N Weijie to play arcade.. play halfway, den suddenly the arcade got smoke coming out frm the other side! N it smoked us up. So, me N Shawn went outside to create sum more "smoke" --> smoking break' while Weijie carried challenging pple in KOF blind-folded~ As Weijie finally came dwn, we saw fire bridage N police cars all came parkin into Lot1, turns out tt there was a fire at lvl5 cinema, N to tink I wanted to watch a movie myself later on.. So, we all went home..
I was feelin tired but yet I'm got tis growin Fucked Up feelin inside me.. I juz cant sleep' juz den, Rene's brother ask me to come Yishun, sayin he'll come fetch me.. so off I went, but nt b4 I kapo a bottle of XO frm my dad's wine counter' Juz knew I needed a drink. I expected Rene to hiew lan me yesterday, but the thing is she's nt even home.. call her, msg her, no reply. even her bro's call also no reply, wat the fuck is she tinkin.. why r Gals so lik tt' den finally received a msg frm her tt she's at Ling's hse. So wif nuthin to do, me N her bro started drinkin.. drank sum whisky, teq, n all the shit tt he has along wif my XO' N chat abt life.. come to tink of it, I tink her brother is realli a Mr.Nice Guy, nt sum busybody le. Suddenly become gum wif him liao le.. Feelin tipsy, I stayed over'

---Today---
In the morning,I rem going out wif Rashid to buy sum stuff tomolo at Beach Rd, lucky I rem else Bro will kill me! but den again, I still woke up late, so heck care lo. Den went N bought our "stuff", shit, spent over 30plus, KNN. Den I try to jio Rene out, but she say give her time to cool dwn, again??? nabeiz, juz a few days ago, also this stunt! So feelin fucked up, I jio my brothers to play bball. Den, JC the turban got a miscommunication wif me N he came Lot1 tinkin we r singin KTV.. sianz half' Den FORCED to sing ktv wif him N Chantell + Shawn taggin along wif me.. Had to pang seh the others, paisei hor, bros' Alreadi voice coarse frm Pierre's ktv party, den forced to sing again, totally fucked up. Coarse voice, tired body, feelin sick, unhappy N in serious need to destress, still confine me in a room N listen to them sing... KNN CCB de. Was juz hopin to get out frm e room asap. Finally managed to survive the session N juz reached home feelin sick N tired, both physically N mentally. I tink I am going back to tt dark period of my life again.. God, save me..

Pierre's 21st Birthday, Mixed feelings..

2004-05-23T13:16:00.000+08:00

Jianquan's 21st Birthday, Mixed feelins..
Went for Jianquan's birthday pre-celebrations yesterday(Sat). Well, woke up late N rushed down to Yishun to meet Rene.. Well, kena scolded upside down by her for being late. Den went joggin wif her' Wow, she can run fast man. almost lost to a gal! Den do gym wif her brother, while she spends her time wandering around oogling at hunks! :P later, I dun-know-for-wat-fuck reason, she PMS me... dun know its my being late, or it's my tellin her I going to meet up wif my Brothers for Pierre's birthday outin last mintue. So dinner was very weird wif her brother tryin to crack stupid jokes to relieve the atmonsphere.. Anyway, I heck care this shit' she can blow her "da xiao jie Pi Qi" for all she wants. Stupid Pierre called me during dinner to hurry me to make matters worse! Anyway, enuff abt this. So her brother drove me to town' He tok to me abt Rene la, tryin to act brotherly luV all over, makes me sianz half. Den he drove me to cuppage, which I alighted. Den stupid Pierre they all not at Sunlight!! Instead, he was at PartyWorld, BISH...
Alreadi "hot" from my tiff wif Rene, he makes me "hotter"! Worse til, Mr.Brotherly Luv insisted on sendin me over to PartyWorld, make him U-turn here N there.. So I reached there wif a very sianz face.. Anyway, only Pierre, his gf, Eush were there.. Lucky tt Pierre got apologised, else I will KILL U, Pierre! His gf kept requestin me to sing songs, haha. When I feel listenin to her sing is way better den listenin to me lo. Summore, I coughin all the way. Later, Denise came N impressed me all over again, wif new songs. Later, Miss.Genie.in.a.bottle also reached to complete her lovesongs duo wif Denise. Den, Vivian, another Diva-queen came along, all sang very well~ except me N jianquan, so we 2 became "judge" for "Singapore Idol" suan le. Halfway throu, when every1 is here, the cake came~ Much to Pierre's surprise, (throu I more surprised den him tt he didn't expect his gf will buy cake for him!?!?") Nearing the end of the KtV session, I had a bet of "Manhood" wif Pierre to "chiong" finished the untouch bowl of tibbits, N when I was about to win, he Humji den start food fight!! He threw Eush, Eush threw back N I was sittin rite btwn them!! So I siam to Linda there. But she also start food fight!! So in the end, it became a Royal Rumble!!! I splashed 1 untouched bowl of tibbits rite onto Pierre! Wohoo~ Den we all siam. Den we all siam quite fast outside, when we looked back, we saw Eush N Vivan, but we didn't see Pierre N his gf!! So for a while, we tot they kena called back to clear the room, hahaha! Den Linda go meet her guy, den we all go to play pool. We paired into Pierre N his gf (couple grp), Eush N Vivian (soon.to.be.Couple. grp?) N me + Denise (both = 1yr neva play pool grp). lolz. The pool match very funny, I didn't try to "let water" a lot lo, I juz didn't score tts all~ Den Pierre insisted I "let water maximum" so he gave back ultimate easy shot for Denise to wrap it up~ Second rd, Vivian geh geh dun know how to play, but top scorer leh~ N we lost, thanks to Denise's last ditch foul(:P), N my impotency~ Den we all char bor home. Poor Denise, go home alone~ Den the rest of us have a fun time dishing the guy surrounded by us on the train, lolz. Den Joyce started the crap abt Vivian N Eush again~ so i joined in a bit. Den she 2-headed snake, shoot me also. Worse of all, Vivian go N play along~ wtf? End of story? Nopez, me N Eush, went to met Rashid at woodlands N we made sure Rashid feels GUILTY abt nt coming today (Bopian he book out at 10pm).. Den we play video games, crap shit N slept. Eush den went to work, Rash go take his bike.pract, I go back home.. As of now, I haven bathe, haven shit, haven receive reply from dear. Got a dumb call frm Shisi askin me to eat S.sushi wif her? I suspected she either juz got Rejected or watsoever, else she wont msg me yesterday abt I also dun know wat stuff liao.. but den again, I cant even solve my own shit, how am I going to take care of others? haiz, my mind wanders again.. N worse of all, Rene still dun msg me, sianz sianz sianz'

Lovely DaY

2004-05-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

Lovely Day~
Today's a lovely day.. Woke up feelin fresh N warm~ Okay, it's 2pm when I woke up la, tts y it's warm~ lolz. Realised its been ages since Serene called me.. Well, voila! got some missed call n an msg from her! Dear is finally not angry wif me le! So off I went to find her N eat wif her, she seems to be gettin lovelier day by day. oo00oo, muacks! Watched "50 first dates" wif her, quite geh yan tt show~ den spent the whole day cuddling~ haha. Am I gettin mushy all over? maybe is too long never see her le ba. Anyway, she is going TW soon for a holiday, why so many pple going to TW around me? I went last yr Dec, Andrew juz returned from TW, lolz. And me N drew went to the same places too! lolz. Anyway, to dear, I will miss U~ U muz get back to see me off for my enlistment ah? Haha! *Muacks muacks muacks*
--- A Crazy N Happy Man ---

3 days ordeal

2004-05-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

3 Whole days, 2 Sleepless Night~
Wow, been super duper busy this past weekend. From Friday onwards, i been reachin home only til morning. On Friday, I am supposed to accompany Serene all day long as well as rest for saturday's Napfa.. but stupid Eric keep pesterin me to go Hamster's bdae chalet, so in E End, FORCED to go down in the evening. Finally, meet up wif Vincent, lolz. His mahjong skills is superb, he muz hav open Mahjong den in the past manz. Anyway, tt day was a gathering of all the army of Singapore, we hav Officers, NSF policemen, AirForce guys, commandos, all the high ranking soldiers of the army~ It's an honour for me, juz a small fry to be juz eatin steamboat, chitchat, manjong, smokin, drinkin, speedin wif them la etc.. Oops! Did I mention drink b4 drive? hahaha... Den at about 4-5am, Ah Jer sent me home 1st, cos morning I hav to go Rene's hse help her carry stuff to her Ah Ma's hse. But' I managed to sleep sum hours b4 I woke up at 5pm~ Den it was a case of draggin myself up from the comfortable bed, althrough I had "Help" from the rest who gave me numerous Missed Calls and Msgs. Thanks guys! I appreaciated ur efforts! hahaha..
Anyway, when I got to the place, lucky I met WQ downstairs N lucky, she is the one holdin the keys, else I be stranded outside E hse! The rest either all drove home sleep or playing billiard/number/pool at BT mechmaster~ Sianz! Anyway, den E other male WQ n JT want to play bball, so when E rest came back. We all chiong to B.G cc only to find a team alreadi booked e court for training liao. And their coach turned out to be JT's fren, haha. anyway, den we all drove to my hse there to play lo~ sianz sianz sianz' Went back, found ger WQ lik sad sad lik tt, tink muz be a tiff wif Ham as usual~ haiz. Den lik almost every1 brought their Gfs dwn, lolz. Funny man, JC actualliu brought Chantell dwn?? when Kelvin is there also?!?! throu Kelvin also brought his new Gf along~ lolz! So we eat BBQ. I tink I grown 3kg fatter this 3days. Den we bought new wine N beer. Den this time round its not normal drinkin liao le. They play card games tt ends very fast onez, not before of cos, sum gambling involved 1st, but of cos' Alex was the Suay God tt nite. He play daidee lost E most or iszit Jer? Den he play card game, he also drank the most~ WM was the best, he drink 2 small Tiger den he siam N become the bartender to mix the beer, fuck~ overall, I also drank quite a lot, cos only Winner dun need drink' Den as usual, went to play billiard at QTSC, "there got a lot of Cais" was wat my memory reminded me abt~ haha! But we were quite Lucky, no road block, if kena. I tink sure all die except WM.. Den went eat prata b4 all going back. Den I was sent home again cos I luv my bed too much~ but wait! Den Eush had to make me giam by jioing me out to sing early bird package at Lot1 K Box, lolz. So I again, sleep 1.5hrs, b4 gettin wake up call from him to wake up~ So met up wif Eush, Desmond, Shisi N worm to sing N meet Jinyi they all there also. His Hair behind is fuckin LONG! he got attach hair, hahaha. Totally didn't enjoy the KTV, 1st thing, I AM TIRED, 2nd thing, my voice was COARSE frm all tt drinkin, 3rd thing, Rene, I am sorry la.. 2 days no sleep liao le ma. U still wan me to go ur Ah Ma hse?? sorry la, sorry la, sorry la. (at least reply my msgs ma) :)
Anyway, Nitez pple! Wish Me Luck for tomolo's Napfa!!!

NS call UP

2004-05-11T00:18:00.000+08:00

Time to Serve my BeLoveD Country~
Haiz, finally, the time has come for Recruit Zhong to serve his country. At the tender age of 20yrs old, I have finally been called up by E army. It's alrite tt SAF called me up, but 10th of June?!?! So early?? WTF' Anyway, the timing of the enlistment letter came at unbelievable timing too. The momment I finished my last paper, the letter came almost immediately' I believe the feelin would be very HIGH for anybody in my shoe~ Juz imagine, U finished ur last paper, YEAH!! Time to go enjoy, den u recieve ur enlistment letter, Bish! It's lik a Hammer rite onto ur Head! Being in E sense of heaven for a short while and den instantly got brought down to hell..
I believe I hav to start training to get a sliver for m napfa as as to hopefully be able to defer for 1-2 more months and dun need to go for PTP~ lolz.
Recap from Friday~
Anyway, the last 2 days was quite high manz. After receiving the enlistment letter, I went out wif Rene the following day. She was quite sad tt I hav to go in so early~ (asif I wasn't, lolz) Juz stone at her house N watch a few videos b4 going to Woodlands to meet Eush and the brotherhood for Drinking Session. Jianquan couldn't come, becos He got a "good" buddy who happen to fall sick, so he has to do guard duty' lolz. Den, kena stunned by Rash, cos he book out onli at 2200, but in e end, its 2300. So, me N Eush stone until we cry. So it's a night of cards, Whisky and video games at Rash's hse. lost too much card game, so I had to drink a lot, sianz half. Althrough I can tak it la, lolz. But the day after, got KTV in e morning, fuck~ So nxt day, went to SunLight for KTV. Singing was quite bad, becos of the whisky. Dun realli enjoy it, anyway, suddenly, "Air HongRay" suddenly wan to shoot some hoops. So we jio JT, JT's uncle, WQ for some bball. WJ didn't come, cos he bookin in on sunday~ lolz. Fuck, tink its because of lack of sleep, plus E aftermath of the drinkin session, I play way below my standards, but well. We still managed to win 2 out of 4 rounds of 5on5 wif the CSC pple~ Anyway, JT's bball has regained his standard, through his attack is still lost-form. Anyway, all 4 games were quite violent, althrough they were not violent towards me la~ haha, again I got a nickname from the CSC pple there, lolz. Wat "Rocket" la, "Missile", lolz. I still rem one of their players' speech, "Ni men you QIE SHOU, wo men you SE SHOU" haha, damm Geh Yan! Anyway, after tt sleep until 5pm today b4 going to kopitiam meet Jer, Zhu N Shawn tok cock. Sad ah, tomolo still muz wake up early. Sianz, I'll end my pen here le. Ciaoz pple!

Unoffical Graduation Day

2004-05-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

Unoffical Graduation Day!!!
Today is the unoffical date of graduation from NP for me.. Althrough I tink I might do badly for today's paper, but I believe my tutors r all Good People (pls pass me and allow me to grad!!!). Anyway, its been a while since I last Blogged.. Been busy wif relationships problems, exams la + sum1's constant Suaning.. U #$#%$^$%^%&%^*^&* (I will KILL U one of these days, lolz) Anyway, after the exams, Ray n Chiam wana go watch movie marathon, but sorry guys, I'm reserved in the evenings' lolz. Den went to meet Serene for a short while b4 she went for work. Den having to meet Eric later to go town as well, so I went to Lot1 to accompany Shisi for a short while. Muz "ka jiao" her today for the constant suanings abt exams as well. Den Eric came and 2 faggots reunited to go to town for sum Boys shopping of our own. lolz! After tt, meet up wif another fren for sum hoops. WQ n Shawn n Eush were all either workin or busy, bopian. After tt, went for dinner at 11pm and tok sum Cock' Went home bathe N went Yishun to roam around aimlessly until she called~ Now, I am in a warm n comfortable room, writing my first blog in about April 21st. Anyway, as wat I told Miss.Tan earlier on, we r now adults le, pls call me Mr.Chong from now onwards, n Ya, the Mr.Chong in all your friendster list is me, Jayson.
My Thoughts N Reflections
Last but not least, I would like to wish E best of luck to my 2 brothers in TT04, Richard aKa Rotiprata N Andy Lau n Ray E Lamster aKa R', hope u two can finally reunite your True LuV for each other during today's Movie Marathon~ To Miss.Tan (Faye.Wong, Bit no1 Chiobu, WQ biao mei) E list juz goes on N on, stay chio 4eveR but dun keep flashing your killer Eyes at me, I will melt! I Realli LuvVv you~ you know? To Miss.Chua (Shortie, Penny.Dai), dun worry abt today's paper la, U muz Believe our Tutors r all Good People Anyway, today quite coincidence sia~ lolz. To Simon aKa Tua Gu, thanks for enduring LEGO training wif me, fuck off to the Fatso pervert horny old auntie, June! Anyway Brother, wait for me! Now tt I grad le, I can go for my bike practs again le! To Decai E LCB, you r the best LCB n provided me wif many insights towards appreciating Mother Nature's "Artworks" of life!!! To JX, jiayou towards a new Luv, always rem your innovative ways to know Gers~ To Diana aka Princess, hope you realise your air stewardress dreams (dun forget buy stuff for me)!! To Andrew, you go be a monk la, everytime KTV forever Jordan Chan's those pattern songs~ but seriously, hope ya find your Real LuvVv soon! To Val, U can join Andrew become Monk too. To Michelle Dajie, didnt know you so lame also 1 leh, haha! Tt day den know you this "Da Jie" is a lamster, but still a good Da Jie nevertheleast!! To Serene N Joy, serene is my brother Chiam's Fav.ger in class while Joy is Brother Simon's fav groupmate, lolz! To Jinyi, Effendy, jinyi, go set up a Uni and become a Love Professor la U! Effendy, can juz go join TCS be actor liao le, best presentation(or should I say Acting? :P) skills wor' To KuanLin, I realli didnt know u r from PJC one also! So sorry, now I will remember!! :P To Ramos aKa Raul, all the best, U fake Jewish!!! grhh.. :) tink I dun know ah, sia lah' To Lemuel, Gerald, Carene, all the best to ya ya? TT04 muz meet up often ah~
Am I getting Freakin long winded, even the busybody behind me is sayin so, wa lao eh! Jialat la, but the above r Realli my True Tots n Feelins towards TT04, lolz! Anyway, who's in charge of organising class outing??? how about Sunset bay this Sat?? any1 on??

--- Jayson is going to sleep le, time for a stupid Rene to use the computer le, haha!---

Graduation Day'

2004-05-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

Unoffical Graduation Day!!!
Today is the unoffical date of graduation from NP for me.. Althrough I tink I might do badly for today's paper, but I believe my tutors r all Good People (pls pass me and allow me to grad!!!). Anyway, its been a while since I last Blogged.. Been busy wif relationships problems, exams la + sum1's constant Suaning.. U #$#%$^$%^%&%^*^&* (I will KILL U one of these days, lolz) Anyway, after the exams, Ray n Chiam wana go watch movie marathon, but sorry guys, I'm reserved in the evenings' lolz. Den went to meet Serene for a short while b4 she went for work. Den having to meet Eric later to go town as well, so I went to Lot1 to accompany Shisi for a short while. Muz "ka jiao" her today for the constant suanings abt exams as well. Den Eric came and 2 faggots reunited to go to town for sum Boys shopping of our own. lolz! After tt, meet up wif another fren for sum hoops. WQ n Shawn n Eush were all either workin or busy, bopian. After tt, went for dinner at 11pm and tok sum Cock' Went home bathe N went Yishun to roam around aimlessly until she called~ Now, I am in a warm n comfortable room, writing my first blog in about April 21st. Anyway, as wat I told Miss.Tan earlier on, we r now adults le, pls call me Mr.Chong from now onwards, n Ya, the Mr.Chong in all your friendster list is me, Jayson. Last but not least, I would like to wish E best of luck to my 2 brothers in TT04, Richard n Ray, hope u two can finally reunite your Luv for each other during today's Movie Marathon~ To Miss.Tan, stay chio 4eveR but dun keep flashing your killer Eyes at me, I will melt! To Miss.Chua, dun worry abt today's paper la, U muz Believe our Tutors r all Good People Anyway, today quite coincidence sia~ To Simon, thanks for enduring LEGO training wif me, fuck off to the Fatso pervert horny old auntie, June! To Decai, you r the best LCB n provided me wif many insights towards appreciating Mother Nature's "Artworks" of life!!! To JX, jiayou towards a new Luv~ To Diana, hope you realise your air stewardress dreams (dun forget buy stuff for me)!! To Andrew, you go be a monk la, everytime KTV forever Jordan Chan's those pattern songs~ but seriously, hope ya find your Real LuvVv soon! To Val, U can join Andrew become Monk too. To Michelle Dajie, didnt know you so lame also 1 leh, haha! Tt day den know my "Da Jie" is a lamster, but still a good Da Jie!! To Serene N Joy, throu not tt close, but keep in touch ya? To Jinyi, Effendy, jinyi, continue to be a Love Professor la U! Effendy, can juz go join TCS be actor liao le, best presentation(or should I say Acting? :P) skills wor' To KuanLin, I realli didnt know u r from PJC one also! So sorry, now I will remember!! :P To Ramos, all the best, U fake Jewish!!! grhh.. :) To Lemuel, Gerald, Carene, all the best to ya ya?
Am I getting Freakin long winded, even Serene is sayin so, wa lao eh! Jialat la, but the above r my Real Tots n Feelins towards TT04, lolz! Anyway, who's in charge of organising class outing??? how about Sunset bay this Sat?? any1 on??
--- Jayson is going to sleep le, time for sum1 else to use the computer---

Poem

2004-04-21T02:45:00.000+08:00

...LuV Uncrucified...

If your heart is not with me while we are in a relationship, can I ever say you were Really mine?
If you had not put in your soul in maintaining our relationship, would you say you Ever Luv me?
If both your heart and your soul were never in our relationship, how could you talk about Luving me still?
And gave me hope and dreams that never Once exist?

Yishun outing

2004-04-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

Yishun is INDEED a nice place
Went to school to do e final report today.. One thing I can say about Ngee Ann, realli Gian Peng.. the weather is so freakin HOT le, still wana save air con, KNN' Anyway, went back home first, b4 going to Yishun to meet Eush, Shawn, Lionel and the 85-kg "purple Worm", haha. But, in e End, Worm also same as me, back pian cannot play bball. 1st thing I muz say, Yishun also has many chiobus~ haha! (throu not as many as Khatib) but, enuff to rival town area liao le. Funny, I saw many "my type" onez today.. anyway, went to the bball court to play sum street bball.. 1 side = ah bengs playing bball, the other side = BIG size and BIG biceps kings play wif "yishunised" gers whose shootin is perfect~ lolz.
anyway, since my back is still hurtin, I decided to act noob, haha. Played wif both sides, overall, I tink only the BIG beceps king team, my team will lose, becos we hav no center to rival their height.. anyway, got 1 little cutie ger in orange, keep giving me e Eye, making me unable to concentrate totally.. haha, BHB. maybe its becos I keep "bio"ing her also~ haha! anyway, been long since I went to Yishun liao le. Althrough I try to act a noob, but I tink they actualli know my powerness, cos all suddenly very "ke qi" towards me, but keep banging my teammates sia~ anyway, Eush want to win today, but I realli couldnt tell he want to win, haha. Sorry, bro. U wan to qie wif them again, muz wait for my back to heal 1st la, or U can jio WQ to go down there can le. If, even I can bang them until so jialat, u tink WQ go there, how? lolz.. anyway, lose the matches la, Shawn wear slippers, plus blisters, I dun dare to chiong, becos of my back, Lionel is quite noob, so bro, relax la~ wan to win is sure win 1 lo~ lolz.. anyway, found it weird that I'm actualli termed as a graceful player by 1 gal sia~ haha.

Tian Xia Bu Shi Kao Yi Ge Ren Qu Da

2004-04-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

The Day of Reckoning came closer as E clock tickles down...
Haiz, Painz~ haven been blogging for the past week.. damm been workin overnight nightly until now, my biological clock is spoilt.. the earliest I can sleep now is 4am?!? wat E hell... 3 more weeks, 3 MORE WEEKS! b4 I either embark on to a new stage in my life, where I will finally be reunited wif all my fellow "xiong di"s in the tiny, but warm and sunny island, known by the name of Puala Tekong~ OR' I be alone in Ngee Ann, stayin back for another damm last 6mths.. Obviously, I wont wana stay back for 6more months, but in life, a lot of things r beyond E control of my puny being... be it tiny matters to Full-blown serious matters lik this IIP.. "Shi Shi He Cheng You Jue Dui, Zhi Pai Wu Jue Xin". this proverb, I lik it a lot, but I only believe E 1st part of the idiom at this desperate stage.. I used to believe in myself, and most of E times I failed, its mainly becos of Fate and the lack of Luck.. it always bring me to a lwhole new low point in life, but I realised m failure is not "Tian Yi" nor "Ren Wei".. I met 1 fren YK recently who told me sumthin which enlightened me greatly.. throu its a bit crap as he said it in our "chinese pugilist" kunfu terms... "Bu Shi Tian Yi yao Ni qu bai, Er shi ni de Xin Ge, Ni Tai Qiang le, shi ni shen bian de Ren, dou chen wei le yu chun de jia hou." 2nd phrase was "Tian xia bu shi yi ge ren to da, ni bai. Yin wei Ni cong bu ken Fang Xia ni Zhun Gui de Zhi Wo, cai shi Ni luo de jin Tian de Jue Jing." final phrase, "tai xiang xin zhi ji de ren, bian zhu ding yao BAI!!!" His profund words of wisdom, makes me look at myself in a whole new perspective.. I looked at things differently now.. as I derive this phrase of mine from his golden words, "Mo shi zhai Ren, Cheng shi zhai Tian, wo ke shen guo Tian Xia ren, que da bu bai Chang Tian, dui yu Tian, wo ye Wu Neng Wei Li". To pple who r my kind, pple who understand wat the hell I'm tokin abt, I believe U understand my situation.. but as we, this kind of people are few and scarce in the world cos we r termed under a type of pple known as Tenshikon in Japanese terms.. so I dun realli expect any1 to understand wat I'm tokin abt.. Anyway, at least I'm now left wif the IIP presentation and UAT shit, I could onli look forward to Judgement day to pass n go wif out a single trace of memory embedded in my mind.. haiz.
"of all E things I've lost, I missed my Mind E most..." ---> [Zhong Hua Ying Xiong vol.19-- Kuang Shen Yi Jian]

31pts Hero~ lolz

2004-04-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

Call me "37pts Hero" + Defeat of Singapore's bball team
Fans of the Defeated Swordman, I would lik to share wif u 2 pts today...
Point Number 1 -- Well, Qie this team called "Devils", which consists of 2 adult team members from my former Yee Tee csc frens.. Not bad, won them Fair n Square! Cant believe it, man.. Anyway, I tink I almost regained my 3pts form, my field shot percentage was unbelieveable, throu nearing the end of the match, I missed sum vital shots, haha! It was overall a nice match (becos I was on-form), but things got a bit ugly nearing e end of the match, they sub in 1 BIG guy N whenever I got E ball in E paint, He Whacked me til dun knw wat, lolz. WQ, my center tried to whack tt BIG guy back, but well~ If they had put tt guy earlier in, they should hav won ba (maybe e guy can whack me til I nt on-form, but on "fire", grrrr...). But it's okie, cos I did a spectcular stunt (Imparted to me by my former sec.sch Bball Shifu - YanXiong) back on him and audiences were like, "WA!! Stunt! Who's tt guy, this kinda shit" Anyway, it was nice to play against my former bball mates again, throu only 2 of them only. After all, they were E "Lao Jiaos" once~ but I was surprised tt one of them is now a "Family" man liao le. I ALWAYS Believe tt he will not get married, becos he is a FULL TIME GANGSTER wif his WELL-EMBODIED Full bodied tattos well, I guess Gangsters also will grow up n get married 1 la ah~
Point Number 2 -- heard frm frens tt Singapore lost all 3 games of the 4-nations tournament, lolz. So I "OF COS" go n suan siao sumbody liao~ lolz, but den he not free today, cos he also got match, but his is Tournament at homeground YeeTee Csc.. so I heck care him, afterall, his biceps is only 7 inches bigger den me~ Hope he lose today, den I can suan him I score 37pts, hahaha!
Conclusion ---> maybe I will soon achieve half my cousin's standard liao le! hohoho, hope I be able to do tt soon... anyway, today one of my bro Eush didnt came down today to play, so guess he missed out my Award-winning performance today~ hahaha.. wonder why he always miss out on exciting matches 1?
<> pls tune in again soon for the nxt Exciting espisode! lolz, Think I today very XL, lolz.

Painz

2004-04-01T07:36:00.000+08:00

Wat a Scare!!!
Whor! Juz now was almost scared to death, I finally finished e pbl2 den suddenly, IT disappear!!! Admist the process of frantically searchin for it, I realised I pulled out my hair... now all so short n thin now... :(
stupid ERP, makes me sianz half.. Asif IIP the website nt enuff to kill me lik tt~ Argh!!!

Swords - Hua Shan Lu Jian!

2004-03-28T02:42:00.000+08:00

Swords - Hua Shan Lu Jian...
Today, got outa Bed at 2-3 plus... instead my Hp flooded wif msgs n miss calls.. Meow n Rachel keep askin me if I see their bulletins in friendster... lost form, keep pestering me for answer for wat? Asif I'm very Yandao, den WQ also msg me abt bball, Even Miricalously was Jianting also msg me for bball?!?! E 10yrs see 1 time guy also will jio me?? lolz, but can't go out, cos promised Swords clan to go for a Clan Duel today... So did sum project b4 going to town to meet e fellow Swords 1st, meet wif Eush 1st, den wait n wait for e Emperor who keep sayin hes no his warstead alreadi.. reachin in 10mins until 6.45pm, lolz. By now, even Denise who hav lessons til 6, also reached liao le.. Linda reached at 9plus, cos go JB wif her Knight in Shinning Armor cum BIG BICEPS~ E Emperor brought along a ger called Grace, b4 he started peaching to us abt Main Dish n Xiao Bai Cai~ lolz.. Went to eat CHICKEN RICE, b4 going for KTV. And it was by e order of e Emperor summore? both Eush n me were stunned to bits.. Anyway, sang quite awfully, cos the chicken rice very sticky in my throat.. As usual, listen to Denise's voice which sounds lik Tanya a bit, Freya a bit AND Linda's voice = always Christina.A in my heart~ lolz. Grace singing also not quite bad, but still got some "tong ying" in it.. Too Bad, Rash couldnt make it for our Hua Shan Lu Jian.. as he is realli busy in Brunei as Undercover, why? Becos he "Yao Zuo Hao Ren".. haha, being lamez here. Den on e train way, in order to liven yp e atmosphere, I did a slight stunt on e Emperor, and got the MD's number thru e SD~ n chat wif e MD... I tink he a bit sianz, but dun worry brother! I, tis puny fry shall neva dare to touch e Emperor's concubine~ lolz.. getting tired...
Juz did a quiz to see which scientific or artistic brain do I hav?
Results = 70 (I'm a left brainer, scientific brain)
You're dominated by the left brain, which makes you the scientist. The degree in which you're dominated by the scientific brain depends on your score. The lower your score is, the more dominate this side of the brain is.
In general, however, you're better at numbers and objective data than with spelling or creative endeavors. And instead of seeing the big picture, you see things in their component parts down to the intricate details.
Because you're great at analyzing situations and solving problems, especially in terms of numbers or data, you'd be best in a career involving, mathematics, business, natural science, engineering, etc.
The abilities you possess to calculate, conceive and plan has been instrumental in humanity's survival.

Stupid Prototype

2004-03-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

Damm Prototype...
Damm... Went for today's presentation wif sum confidence, but all dashed by mr.Lim... I REM he SAID for our grp only need to show admin pages!!! In e end, he Fucked us for not doing the MEC pages to let him see... Bish~ watever, anyway, Michelle n Val's grp did well, WQ's grp moderate, followed by Simon's and the worst was ours. Why? Cos we didnt do MEC pages~ sianz half.. Skipped Dci practical, it's Miss Tan's last lesson wif us N I felt bad to skip her last lesson. But well, pain~ Pain, Catherine! Went back home to Sleep~ den Eush called n meet up at CCK (throu e original plan was to go to Yishun to ricket 1st). Eush told me tomolo to accompany E Emperor as its was his last few days b4 he FINALLY go NS.. lolz. Eush jioing Linda n Denise, as usual. N I deeply suspect these 2 will bring along "extra company", lolz. tts makes its quite hard to do anything lik KTV or billiard, so is it gona to be SSB or op24?? I'll hav to see wat E Emperor decrees tomolo~ Hail, MacPierre, King of Scotland!!!

Unbelieveable~

2004-03-25T09:06:00.000+08:00

Unbelieveable
Tuesday... I cant believe it, I'm Pes A, wtf?!? Give me Pes A, should also bless me wif perfect eyesight, so I can go commandos maz... Wa lao eh~ Den got so many funny stunts happen to JX n Me.. Den sum1 burnt a small hole in my bball shorts wor, lolz. Rem ur promise ah.. Den had to go back to Poly for stupid "complusory" lecture. Kena "Tua-ed"
Wednesday... Went to for Doc's appointment in the morning to examine my left eye. Tt time kena elbowed til now still haven recovered... sianz. Den doctor do full checkup on m body, and tell me my body got a lot of problems, wa lan eh... so I told him abt my stunt tt I did, which led to my whole left part of my body getting injured.. so in e end, X-ray not only my left eye, but my whole body, sianz sianz sianz/ Den went for MEC lessons, got there late. Do sum stuff and fak off asap.. Richard says will send me the stuff for DCI, but realli paisei, when I got home, I was so tired wif a spliting headache, so I slept at abt 5-6pm and juz woke up today... Argh!! DCI haven do, prototype neva touch, tomolo how to survive?!!??!?!
Die, SURE Die...

Field Trip

2004-03-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

Field Trip - Sucky day
Went to sleep at 330am yesterday, and had to crawl out of bed at 6am today to go for the field trip today to CitiBank and IPOS or watosever... The moment I got off 184, I ran to the boarding area and managed to make it juz in time.. cos Mr.Lim say leave at 830am sharp... but WQ late still can relax relax walk in and got onto the bus, lolz.. Anyway, freakin boring the 1st part of the trip, listen to lecture, FAQ session den go to their realli high-tech data command center to visit for fun.. den went for lunch break and sumthin happen to make me sad.. Nvm, anyway, den go to the IPOS center to learn abt patents and copyrights etc... At the lecture, sumthin happen again, and I make a mistake. I'm Sorry to sum1, I realli dun meant it... Anyway, later went to meet Shawn at CCK, and suddenly Eush come my hse to ton. lolz.

Brooding over the past~

2004-03-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

An Emotional Day as the Legendary Swordsman S is defeated...
Nowadays, I find tt I keep brooding over the past... Especially during the wee hours of the cold wind nitez. I keeping looking back over my previous "duels" wif Ancient Powerful Warriors and their Legendary Swords... I hav even been ransacking my room, digging out past mementos and photos from my previous "Duels"... Why I am doing this? I also do not know.. I juz feel EMO, lately. This is a term from my Brother, Richard aka QingShuang. As of now, I hav offically no 1 in mind to spar wif.. althrough I say le, no 1 believed me... Every1 keep asking me abt either these 2 martial art exponents Weny or S... Haiz, both has "contract lines"liao okie? Tink I this puny small "Diao Xiao Er" dun stand a chance la... It's all my fault, being so indecisive, wasting time trying to figure out who to challenge first.. Cant help it, I even asked many TOP EXPERTS in the field who is more worthy an opponent for me to try my "Feng Shen Tui" on.. Noticeably, Master.Ray aka Bbbuu JingYun, borned wif a Dragon-arm and well-versed in the art of martial art "BBBbbBbathin Shen Gong" Upon his teaching and imparting of his potent skills, I gained Enlightenment in an instant! But by E time I drew out my "Xue Ying Kuang Dao" feeling all charged up wif energy to challenge S to a duel, she was alreadi defeated by another great martial artist who used the "xiang long shi ba zhang" to subdue her~ Pain... --->the war is lost before the war has begun... Wonder Why can I ever get to meet a worthy opponent? To all Swordsmen out there, I'm deeply sorry I cant Put out the decreased Swordsman S's photo as the blog is readable by "every1", so I cannot post here. Maybe later on den I post ba~

Bball or Brothers of the sword...

2004-03-17T17:36:00.000+08:00

Basketball or Sword...
I'm torn btwn going for bball or going to meet up wif all my brothers of the Sword clan.. had an online tutorial at 12pm today, could barely woke up when I slept at 7am today!!! Sum1 better compensate me for my time hor~ lolz... Anyway, juz woke up from a nap too and did some of my database part... Poor Michelle, now is her turn for her database connection to keep disappearing liaoz, lol. Back to the Brothers or Bball, the Sword clan are going to GL, i dun knw for wat throu... realli geh yan~ Haiz, tink I go both sides la... painz!!! go out wif them sure stay out very late, den tomolo my ERP lessons and quiz would mean I sure die... sumbody save me!
btw, done a quiz, http://www.usagiandmamoru.com/quiz/man.html
Results is I'm a Prince... Possessing a strong will, you are ambitious and determined, valiant and noble, but still know how to have fun.
You admit you still have a lot to learn in life, but what you have learned and experienced has brought you far! You strive to achieve the best in yourself and to meet your own expectations as well as those of others around you. When under pressure to perform, you do so with flying colors, but if you fail, you may fall into slight depression but will always get back on your feet because of your strong will and nature. Personal growth and learning are highly important to you! You will go far in life.

Chao CheeBai!!!

2004-03-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

Freakin Violent Team
Freakin hell, today was a bad day... Raining still go woodlands to qie pple, lolz... But had to go to Lot1 first to meet up wif the others, b4 going to Woodlands... Got there, do sum warm up by playin wif sum sec sch pple, I tink la. Den our opponents came, play normal at first, den suddenly the fucker PF suddenly play physical wif my team center, den suddenly it became an ugly match, even the guy guardin me suddenly tinks tt slappin and whacking m hands is not considered foul~ So, I tried to intervene in the match halfway and asked them to cool down.. Den in e end, even I also cannot tahan liaoz. My center even want to sub out, cos every1 tell him its juz a friendly lo, no need so violent til he dulanz... In the end, it became a fuckin violent match, I got a lot of injuries, but we made sure they more jialat den us, lolz. I elbowed 2 guys in the face, 1 whack on another guy's head, knee 2 persons in the stomach, attempted to make them fall down by stickin out my legs, but no 1 kena, sianz. I did every stunt possible in an "accidental way", so they cant say anything, anyway, they also freakin violent, except tt I managed to siam their elbows~ Stunt of the day, Got 1 fatso kena my knee straight in the chest, so shiok! I was going at full speed to the basket b4 I jumped n ram him right in the chest or throat or face, forget where I knee him le, haha. In the end, also managed to win~ lolz. After tt, played sum 4on4 and again, the fucking violent team come and Qie... Den again, same sequence, We win them, den instant lose to the 2 gals n 2 violent kia team, (as usual, got gal sure lose). Den another team comprising of 4 very tall Pfs and Cs will win them back, den lose to the violent team, b4 they lose to us again, and so on~ lolz. Now tt I got home, I feelin the ache all over... Painz!!! Woodlands csc, U all wait, we gona thrashed U all again n again nxt time!!!! Fuck U, @%$#^$%@^#$^%$, hope u all die and ur sons all no ass-holes!!! GrrrRRrrrrrrrrrrrr... U'll pay for it in blood! lolz

Shoulder Injury

2004-03-13T02:12:00.000+08:00

Painz... went meet Rashid and Eush bro at CCK after lessons today to slack since so long neva meet up liaoz.. Rashid is going to Brunei on the 18th and Eush is gona be "busy" for quite sum time wif his "guitar lessons", :P On the way there, I fell asleep on the bus, den when i realised I missed the stop, I rush towards the exit.. As the bus is moving forward, I tripped and BANGED my shoulders onto the metal bars and fell down the bus, CCB!!! so freakin paisei!!! Wif pain in my heart, reached Lot1, eat, slack, tok cock in a professional way b4 Eush bro came to meet us. From there onwards, its a war between watching movie and playing billiard~ plus Arcade.. Rash's Billiard was on-form today! But by luck, managed to win him by 1pt! lolz..Den from there onwards, its billiard, arcade in a cycle til 1am b4 the 4 brothers went home... Only realised tt my shoulder injury is quite serious during, very swollen and bruised now... Painful day, Painz~

Busy week

2004-03-12T09:29:00.000+08:00

This whole week was very busy... been doing the stupid database and programming stuff for the IIP lately. Fucking Sianz~ Yesterday still stayed back in school until 9plus to do the database wif michelle n kuanlin, andrew's grp and 1 little Jingyi, lolz.. Den Jingyi drove us to woodlands to eat~ lolz. After today's presentation, still muz do the MEC 500word report due saturday, and den monday instant got IS pcr n wisp stuff to hand in!!! argh!!! busy week and weekend...

Routine

2004-03-10T00:11:00.000+08:00

(Tuesday) was juz a normal day... used to school as usual... but juz kena stunt from Mr.Lim... fuck him~ Had to do another website to connect to database... sianz, dun even know how to finish by friday.... Sad n pathetic.. Now still trying to connect to database, dun knw wats wrong, juz cant connect... sure die~

Sick n Tired

2004-03-09T11:11:00.000+08:00

Haiz, I muz admit... I am gettin weaker by the day.. fall sick again yesterday... stupid weather so cold and I'm down wif flu again. Muz be becos stayed up late the day before.. haiz~ do databse do IS project, shitty.. Den today rainy day summore! Instant sick ah! Tired and sicky, I juz wana sleep...

Tired N itchy day

2004-03-08T01:24:00.000+08:00

Not too bad today, meet up wif Rashid n Eugene at woodlands in e afternoon.. tok sum cock, visited the library n got recommended to sum book called "what dreams may come" by Eugene, lolz. After tt, go grab sumthin to bite b4 going back CCK for bball.. Again, I met old bball frens, and again we lost to them.. throu this time the score shall be 2-2 apiece... Sadcase, once again I defending every1, once again, I had to play center and our offence immediately dun know doing wat fuck liaoz... If I play guard, again the defense sucks. wonder Wat I am to do manz... After tt, went Lot1 for sum drinks n to cool down wif Eugene n Shawn, meet JinYi half-way n tok to him abt his luv n my luv~ lolz.. He actually tot I wan to fail my common test manz~ wtf?!?! haha, now I'm home doing my database... sianz life~

Tired and Sick

2004-03-07T12:32:00.000+08:00

Today woke up feelin sumwat better... Called up Rashid bro n later going down to find Eugene n Rashid... didnt blog yesterday beocs I'm sick. So here's yesterday events..
(Saturday) Tired.. Now to add to my list of injuries, I got an injured knee... kena banged hard today during bball. Sucky~ Den went to the library to borrow sum reference books for IIP, tink sure die if its tuesday present.. Got home, bathe, surf net, chat on phone a while, suddenly felf sick, so sleepz.. Woke up at around 8plus, Bro R n E went for sum career fairs den coming down down CCK to watch movie.. Den I go sleep again to hopefully recover a bit, den i slept thru the nitez, realli sorry to both of u!!

Failed ERP for sure, but enjoyed e after test enjoyment~ lolz

2004-03-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

My freakin alarm clock failed me today... I was supposed to wake up at 5am to study b4 going to take ERP and guess wat? I woke up at 7plus! So to cap it off, I studied 1hr for e damm paper~ So I got to sch to meet Decai n Simon at 10am.. Every1 came complaining they not enuff time to study, but who can qie me? blame it on the damm match yesterday manz, regretting it now... But once again, Wanqiu again gave me sum hope tt I"ll hav some company next semester~ lol.. After tt, meet Grabrielle to do PCR project, meet Angie n Val as well. Andrew tagged along to see his Grabrielle, haha. Grabrielle wan to discuss project, but wif the 3 brothers doing their usual stunts, she decided to give up doing project and jio us to go KTV~ so me, Ray, Drew, Richard and Grabielle as well as Val n Angie went to town to sing. Den Angie n Val go on sum date n MIA~ haha. On the way, I saw YT, but she neva saw me. So I guess no fate ba~ haha. Quite enjoy the KTV session, but 5hrs a bit too long liao~ Anyway, Grabrielle was quite a good singer la. Except she dun know how to control her volume and sum high pitched parts (Tink I hanged around wif too much singers liao la, become critic liaoz).. Ray's singing improved also, now he is able to project his voice well le.. Chiam as usual, me as usual.. N when I sang "hua xiang" by Xu ShaoYang, Grabrielle asked me to sing well cos its her fav.song, lolz. She doesnt know tts one of my "Chen Ming Qu".. So when I finished e song, she praised me, hahaha. Geh Yan enufff.. After tt, Val, after gettin his car license, was super eager to go out, so now here I am, gettin ready to go out again~ lolz. Drew's Lancer, Diana's car and Val, we got 3 cars to take out the class~ pity JinYi couldnt make it and JX is MIA currently.. I called up Miss Wanqiu to ask her out also and tok sum cock wif her. Den she used my excuse, Very Tired ah, painz~ lolz... I prayed for the 2 of us to maybe hopefully luckily pass ERP n DCI.. For her, I prayed for her other subjects too~ :P See ya, pple! gtg out le.. The Nitez is out there to enjoy~

Fucked Up N left in Pain...

2004-03-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

Went for MIS test today and Boy was it cool~ E format seems so easy, but in e end, I only managed to finish half the paper... Haiz, pretty boring sia, from monday til now, I keep writing I flunked my tests, lolz! Life, full of ups n downs, maybe I'm at the down phrase right now... After e freaky test, went home for bball to destress myself a bit~ Played wif the Filipinos team 5on5 and we won in style althrough we went into overtime with the score 40:38, I managed to squeeze in a tie for the match to go into O.T, tyco shot. Won 50-42 in e end.. haha. After tt, came sum secondary students and pple from lam soon csc, won 7 games in a row! High on confidence = underestimating ur opponents, we finally lost to the lam soon pple, through its a 4on3 as they got 1 more gal gal, called wat Shan wat ah... Shot to death by her manz! pui! after tt, my team keep losing to tt team becos my mates all wan to act pro, dun wan to guard her, so we end up losing 3 in a row~ shitty.. Den supposed to go home to study, becos of ERP... den my Cousin had to call on me, saying ask me to accompany him... wat sad la, tests not doing well, GF pissed wif him la watsoever~ (same as me, except I no Gf) Went to our homeground, Yee Tee CC to play... Eng tat credit pple not there, so only left the 2 of us, den we played 1on1 at the other half of the court and voila! I got thrashed by him as expected... He fucking DUN give face, dunked 1 over my stupid head and banged to the the floor, worse is it happened juz when the unity and regent sec bball gers and guys came along. Wat E hell~ He's gona get it frm me 1 of these days... I'll bang him til his head come off! Played sum 5on5 with them and den stoned a while b4 he send me home on his Porsche, haha! Freakin gay leh him, insist I wipe myself dry b4 going onto his car~ lolz, gay gay gay.. So now here I am, juz bathed and refreshed. Any1 ready to join me in not sleeping and studyin thru e Long Cold Nite wif a Full Full moon as companion? Am I being lame, God help me...

DCI also flunk...

2004-03-02T20:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz, DDBS flunk.. DCI also flunk.. PainZ~ Today was a "Suay" day, lolz. Bumped into my "Shuai Tang Ge" at Lot1 N immediately, I knew I'm gonna be suay~ lolz. Got sum "Complements" from him on my looks ah, biceps ah, this ah, tt ah~ (note: I hav e pair of "" abt the word-complements) Den on the bus, suddenly felt like vommiting~ bish! (Car sick?) So I sorta knew I was going flunk DCI. Why, becos I'm suay~ Also, I went into the test tinking I was gona get the lousiest grades, but as the chinese saying goes "1 mountain got 1 more higher one~" Corrections! I should say 2 more higher ones to be excat. Theoratically, they r tall mountains in our clasS, cos they r considered tall among the gers? Haha, anyway, halfway thru e Tests, sum1 suddenly dun feel lik doing, tok to Miss Catherine den can go off le!! wohoo~ cool! Stylo! More lost-form den Stunned, I do do do and do until I peeped at sum1 sitting in front of me also, her paper was so "..........", lolz. It was den I realised I've got a challenger for e DCI worst student grade! haha, am I rite? Miss W? On the way home, there was one crazy Auntie on e bus... I was sitting in front of her, den she suddenly sing very loudly dun-knw-wat hokkien Songs!!! den every1 on e bus kena stunned.. I immediately changed seats, rather stand den to sit in directly in front of her! God knows wats she'll do! Anyway back to e subject, I was tinking abt this shit... Wat IF, I mean Wat IF from yesterday's DDBS test to friday's ERP, will I keep repeating my opening lines of my blog? " Haiz, This one flunk.. that one also flunk.." blah blah blah~ haha, CHOY! N seems lik no1 interested in Friday's outing???

Honey rocks~

2004-03-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

Honey Rocks~ After the stupid DDBS test, went to eat wif Valmon they all... B4 had to take stuff frm WQ n go print. Long walk to e Co-op, den another long walk to the Atrium again.. Tired, Period. At first, Jinyi n WQ joining us, den later they dun wan, cos Valmond car is too small, blah~ So went our separate ways.. (btw to sum1, if ur reading tis, I'm sorry I kup ur call..accidentally! All e stupid DDBS test's fault, alrite dumb excuse, I'm juz sorry) After finishing, got a quick ride to BP by Valmond. After tt, went to WL library wif Ray to "study" as well as appreciate sum Fine Works of Life.. Lots of "Ray's type" was found upon closer study on the fine specimens freely available there~ Studied til 4pm, den had to stone ard waiting for Bro, Eugene.. (He has got a HOT date wif the doctor, as he contracted sum sort of VAMPIRE disease, lolz!) After tt, went to eat wif him den tok sum cock abt Taoism n Buddhism, haha. Went to catch "Honey", n Boy was Jessica Alba HOT! slick dance moves n groovey beats stay within my head throu-out e Whole Freakin Show. Famous line frm the movie--> "I like to make every experience Educational~" Totally cool N stunning frm tt watsoever Lil kid in e movie~ Saw the "biong biong" ball machine n "top gun" at the WL funfair as well~ Anyone game to go on Friday? After our last paper? Cmon, so back to reality, finishing this blog = go back to study DCI til e NICE morning lights shine into my face again, as well as the sounds of e BIRDs singing to tell me to sleep... lolz.

Right after DDBS test..

2004-03-01T12:00:00.000+08:00

Haiz, now my feelings is very down as of now... Juz submitted the test for DDBS... Sianz, all dun knw how to do... all dun knw how to write... everything i also dun knw~ lolz
Lame ME...

Good Luck to myself, A Slient Prayer...

2004-03-01T01:55:00.000+08:00

Good luck to myself, a Slient prayer... DDBS~ sucky subjects, always hated subjects lik wat CDS, CID, watever~ now I'm preparing for this dreadful test which I intend to study until e sun shine onto my face~ lolz! Gd luck every1, guess u guys needed it too~

Positive Thinking

2004-02-29T15:25:00.000+08:00

Recently been feelin wasted n Negative... den i came upon this stuff frm sum1..
Positive thinking is like this.... A little bird flies up in the sky; you look up and it shits in your eye... But you don't mind and you don't cry... But you thank God that cows don't fly..... (quite lamez, but it actualli brought a smile to my face, not a pretentitous one tt is...)
Btw, view tis link: funny as hell...
http://members.aon.at/pcnet/lachen/stfu

Subject: Boring life ahead...

2004-02-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

Alrite, managed to cover DCI a bit at least for now... left wif sunday to study for E rest of the 4 subjects. So who am I kiddin if I expect to pass the Common Tests? Studied in e morning, went for lunch wif YT, went home study, went out wif Brother Gerry to eat sum supper.. Tt guy, lolz, he's damm rich!!! whoever is his Gf is "Xing Fu", everything on E house!!! "Beep! Beep, Beep! Beep, Beep Beep, Beep Beep!" He actualli fork out 400 plus alreadi tis month on tt ger he's chasing now! Accompany him to go buy a necklance for e ger juz now at Goldheart or sum know wat name (onli know purple interior designs)... Tt ger is sure damm lucky,somemore onli got to know Gerry less den a week onli!!! Fuck~! Lucky ger~ Alrite, so got back home, N still no mood to study, got back to watch "Zhong Hua Ying Xiong"... Now I realli got to start studyin again le!!!

Funny Bball shit!

2004-02-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

(friday)Fuck man! play bball today also can see 1 of my old bball frens back at the Yee Tee area.. lolz. pple now alreadi become coaches of a youth team liao, didnt realised i'm playing against his team until after the match, he came n tok to me.. Sadcase, He's a bball coach (cos he's banned for fightin in "Lan Zong Bei" competition, so become coach). His reasons is damm cock, wat tot the guy behind him is e opposite team's guy, and turn around juz whack, whack finish liao den realised its e Ref!!! where got tis kinda of shit~ lolz! But still he's a coach whereas I onli coached b4 Kranji primary sch team.. pathetic. Nvm, so went home, bathe den decided to study, but ended up watchin "Zhong Hua Ying Xiong" the old tv series last time when we were young. Shouldn't hav bought it today when I'm alreadi so poor~ As of now, I hav only completed lecture 2 of DCI, lolz. Tink I'm going be class bottom liao le... My brain tells me I hav gotta study startin rite now, but my heart feels e opposite... Keep tinkin abt sum1.. lolz. To Miss Da Xiao Jie: Ooi, dun xiao qi liao la... u wan to choose wat mode of communication up to you la, who am I to say you rite? I will obey you.. :P Frm: Xiao Nan Ren.

2004-02-27T15:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday(Thurs) was a weird day... i wake up feelin alrite and den I went dwn to Ngee Ann wif Ray to print my stuff for e coming common tests. Got there and spend e day crappin away wif Ray.. After tt, I have to go home and eat out wif my family, cos my sister's birthday~ Went to dun knw wat shitty restaurant to eat, costs 160plus, heng my elder sister shared else I die! (last week Dad's birthday as well, tts y I'm offically broke). Dun knw share wif my elder Sis wat shitty geh yan Lingerie, a bottle of perfume and wat damm wine... lolz. While we r eating out, I see my Parents so loving, my elder Sis wif her BF, my younger Sis n her "pu tong peng you" (a guy who always call her at 11pm?!?! n still dare to say pu tong peng yong), and tt negative feelin came all over again (nt tt they pissed me off, its juz this negative feelin tt has no sadness, no anger, juz pure NEGATIVE) So, when I got home, I went out again to drink by myself.. Bought sum beers, sum stout, bought a hardpack and started there stoning by myself til I meet YT under her hse.. by accident.. not on purpose 1 on, pple... So she drank wif me a bit til abt 11plus b4 she went home as she got sch tomolo morning... YT still as pretty n adorable as ever.. So, all by myself again when suddenly, B.Brothers called and I went dwn to BoonLay to drink wif them. When i got there, its turns out to be not so brotherly~ lolz. Hamster n his ger WQ, Jc and C, plus weimin all alreadi drinking away.. there was 2 problems tt day, JC quarrel wif C, plus me = tt depression thingy again... Halfway thru, alreadi got a lot of dramma alreadi, den C's frenz had to come n pissed JC up even further. Got plenty of stunts happen tt nitez. Den C went off wif her frens to QT club and we all went dwn shortly thereafter.. The irony is tt Ham's ger, WQ gor drunk along the way and threw up on e cab, lolz. Heng, I was on a "super four". Got there, played sum billiard, and by tis time, JC n C sorta cool dwn liaoz, and managed to "patch" up, den sum1's turn to become moody, lolz. I dun knw much stuff abt E 3 of them, e behind-e-scenes stories, so i cant comment much. After all the drama and stuff, I went home feeling all mixed up~ slept at 5am and juz woke up only now...

2004-02-26T01:49:00.000+08:00

Haiz, today(wed) was meant to be a study day.. but after toking wif Mr.Yeo aka LCB, i become very stressed about the IIP project... so i jio JX, R' and Prata to go meet up wif the company.. as it was last-mintue den we knew the company closed at 5pm, only JX was early cos he is rich (got $$$ to take cab). When we reached, again we took cab to the HQ unit there a ubi.. after an 1 and 1/2hrs time of searchin for the correct clothes, in between R' keep commenting on how "nice" the clothes look, we finally finished our stuff n we quickly siam~ Wif 2 BIG BLACK plastic bags, we started to tink of where to go. In e end, as 4 lonely sad men wif nuthin to do in mind... we went to PS to hav our dinner before we start to tink of wats for E lovely nite to do~ every1 is onz abt KTV but Prata dun wan, JX wana go for a drink at some "dark" pub, but R' is scared he becomes itchy after drinkin. In e end, we went to Discussion, a KTV PUB.. lolz. There, we met the "great singer" whose high n squealky voice is like e "voice of heaven" sang for us his "jin dian" songs like Power Station's "chong dong" etc... and R' was particularly impressed by him and decided to sing along wif him... so shiok man, lolz! Every1 toks abt his sadness and sorrows as any sad man will do, except Prata.. He INSISTED he is not sad and we all BELIEVED him. Nowadays, its seems lik all members of The Challengers TM r always sad.. throu not all at the same time.. there will be no one time when all 4 members r truely HAPPY.. JX is happy on e outside, AND I tink he is a realli Happy Man inside as well.. R' seems to get over it frm my consolling, but i tink he became more sad after JX's consolling, lolz. On the way home, R' finally opened up his heart and told me his story on V day eve, but on the condition that I told him wat happened on sunday.. the halftime break was when JX will enlighten us wif his new-age sensitive man's theories. Lolz, lots of shit happen today, and manz, i wont be gettin to sleep tonitez..

2004-02-25T11:18:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was very "bluey".. Sleep at 5am on E previous day and had to get to NP by 11am to do ERP pract5... Got there actualli very early at abt 9am plus, cos i still cant get to sleep realli.. so i stone there looking at every living person that walk past the bustop... even being lame to count the number of cars that passed by. By the time WQ came, I almost finished my Marboro hardpack! (juz bought in e morning). We saw my Val n Drew their group in e pract room, n i had to say, dun get e wrong meaning ah. Andrew~ Den we started the damm pract, when XF came to join us. damm, after finishin up the pract, i had to go for bball again~ freakin tireD! frm 3pm til 10pm! wat kinda shit is this!!! During the bball , i'm achieved 1 stunt manz! as I had to get my "stuff" frm Brother Eugene at lot1 by 6:15pm, i ran there at 6:11pm! i tink the whole distance was almost 1km! dun knw how i did it, but lost form is that at Lot1-coffeebean, i meet my old classmates, den Kangwei too. while i awaiting for Eugene, dripping in sweat, hair all messed up, i had to see my Ex coming out frm E control station... fuck~ juz another day of mine...

2004-02-24T03:58:00.000+08:00

juz done a simple friendtest quiz while waiting for Miss WQ to finish her assignments (got it from Jia En's post), so here's e link...
click here...

2004-02-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

Had actually wanted to go fishing wif my Shuai cousin today, to relax and get free frm all my troubles as well as meet up wif him after CNY.. but suddenly he got a hot date(as usual, n left me alone/even if i go, i also be lightblub), n i'm left alone on my own once again, as usual... Den my bro, Eugene suddenly jioed me to go town for Ktv, saying its our last "Sword" clan outing, saying since all of us will have commitments for a couple of months... Feelin idiotic going to fish myself... i chose the latter... Bevelyn N shisi both couldnt make it, due to last minute jio-ing by Eugene, heng Shawn came to the rescue .. Throughout the Ktv session, i felt very blue n dun know why, every song i sang, the lyrics makes me feel even more fucked up... but somehow after it ended, Shawn managed to cheer me upa bit, wif his story abt Vinncent and all the stunts tt happen to the rest of the gang recently, and den we went to Clementi to meet weimin n a mysterious ger of his for billiard. In e end, it turned out to be Shantill or sumthin lik tt, gf of another fren of mine.. Heard plenty from Shawn abt e Shantill n Mr.J n Mr.K... secret, paisei pple. During e game, while Shawn n Weimin were playing, Shantill n me started e nonsense n idiotic crap abt cold jokes, and she's crap manz... idotic n COLD to e extreme, "gong gong gong" joke, bish... lolz, Somehow, at this point i'm feelin better but as of now, when i on my laptop n see her pic... I'm feelin negative all over again...

2004-02-23T02:59:00.001+08:00

---I feel f0r you---
Only so many times
tt I can say I long for you
E rose among the thorns
E prey among the wolves

Someday, I will feed a snake
Drink her venom, stay awake
With time all pain will fade
From your memory will I fade?

Barely cold in ur place
Barely warm in my bed
Settling for a draw tonight
Puppet girl, your strings are mine

This one is for you, for you,
Only for you
Just give in to it.. never think again
I feel for you

2004-02-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

Ya, and i'm sorry to my "PJ S-club" frenz for not coming dwn yesterday.... if any1 of u all even know i have a blog... Really sorry for not coming yesterday, hope u pple have a "happy" time.. Especially towards J.C, we'll catch up 1 of these days again, ya?

2004-02-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

I dun know wat came over me again.... today was supposed to be a happy day for me.. get to sing ktv wif Jills and Rene N a few I-dun-knw faggots.. I should be happy. but its this stupid negative feeling that came over me again.. I realli hope tt they didnt notice it on my fucked up face... guess I've screwed every1's day, sorry pple. And i tink Rene is pissed by my atitude today. Also, realised tt many small things can indeed result in sumthin major...
As of now, when E nitez is dark, my Heart in pain, wif E damm feeling in my heart...I tink i'm going to stone for a while... f0r I'm afraid i'm going to go crazy soon... People r full of SHIT, and LIES and i realli meant it when i said it. Juz Hope this glommy stage of life will pass soon...

2004-02-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

Wake up at 8:30am in e Morin N took cab to school today... damm, 9bucks gone again for e 3rd time tis week.. All this becos, i dreamt of sum1 last nitez again~ lolz! Boring seminar, boring lecturers, so boring til, we all decided to go catch a Movie.. Chiam didnt want to go, cos he wan to go home D.I.Y~ So, we catch e move "Cold Mountains" due to sumbody's gd recommendations~ For e 1st half-hr, Andrew was yawning and stoning away, while i was sleepin away, onli R' was realli watchin, as he's e 1 who recommended us the show... Overall, e damm movie onli e last part not too bad la... gives me an insight as to my future as a farmer, retiring and enjoying dinner wif "gd frens, gd wife, gd kids".. lolz~ haiz, now i worry abt tomolo not enuff engery to go for 2 ktv sessions, 1 wif my tt04 classmatez, 1 wif Serene N Jills they all..

2004-02-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

Its now late nitez and i am feelin dammm hot~ sucky bball today made me sweat like hell.. n painz~ my knees hurt, kena scratched by 1 sick bastard who has super long nails manz! tt pussy~ lolz but i am the best defensive player of the year~ got a triple double in steals, intercepts and block shots manZ! wohoo!